2yearsNC Posted March 31, 2010 Posted March 31, 2010 Hey I don’t know what to post. In 2 days, it will be 2 years complete NC. In that time, I lost it all, money, business, car, liciense, furniture, had a few rebounds passed up a few decent females, had a 6 month relationship, broke it off, stayed single for about a 9 months now moved back home and then moved to a new city and started the clock on life again about 3 months ago. With all of that said, I contacted the EX about 3 weeks ago. She picked up, I stood quiet, hit the mute button, waited for about 50 seconds, then hung up. I called back, she picked up, waited about 20 seconds, then she said “Who is this”, waited another 20 seconds then hung up. Chills ran through my spine, “She’s still alive”, but nothing major, after that I caught myself looking at her facebook profile and this one picture I couldn’t delete of us online because it was on one of her friends albums. I wish I could delete that picture. It’s the only one of us together. I threw away everything, clothes, lipstick, shampoo, panties, everything. Walloed in my pitty and guilt for about 1.5 years. You see, in the end turns out she was banging another dude and I was her sugar daddy or, atleast becoming that. Her best friend told on her, I broke up with her and she begged for about a week and once I caved in she 180 uturn and somehow blamed me for everything. It broke me. I was lost for a long time, believing it was my fault but in reality, like she said… I can’t put words on what she said, she was confused. I wonder if she got it together now. I wonder If she knew it was me who called her. I can hear her now, sometimes. In my head. Its Weird. I loved her. I was going to ask her to marry me. Took 2 years to recover, I’m still healing. That’s my story, took one big hit, fell to 0 and now I’m rebuilding. If I could do it again, I would of not put life on pause for all those years, waiting and longing for her to come back. She never did and never called. I think I was a fool. I think I was her learning boyfriend. I don’t miss her anymore. I think about her often. I wonder why she remained quiet on the phone for so long without even saying hello, that’s not like her. I wonder if she knew it was me. I doubt it.
Full Moon Posted March 31, 2010 Posted March 31, 2010 Wow. I empathize with you. Your sincerity shines through in this post. I just want to tell you to keep hanging on and pushing forward. You've come so far. You seem like a good man and you deserve a good woman. Continue to take care.
skydiveaddict Posted March 31, 2010 Posted March 31, 2010 Hey I don’t know what to post. In 2 days, it will be 2 years complete NC. In that time, I lost it all, money, business, car, liciense, furniture, had a few rebounds passed up a few decent females, had a 6 month relationship, broke it off, stayed single for about a 9 months now moved back home and then moved to a new city and started the clock on life again about 3 months ago. With all of that said, I contacted the EX about 3 weeks ago. She picked up, I stood quiet, hit the mute button, waited for about 50 seconds, then hung up. I called back, she picked up, waited about 20 seconds, then she said “Who is this”, waited another 20 seconds then hung up. Chills ran through my spine, “She’s still alive”, but nothing major, after that I caught myself looking at her facebook profile and this one picture I couldn’t delete of us online because it was on one of her friends albums. I wish I could delete that picture. It’s the only one of us together. I threw away everything, clothes, lipstick, shampoo, panties, everything. Walloed in my pitty and guilt for about 1.5 years. You see, in the end turns out she was banging another dude and I was her sugar daddy or, atleast becoming that. Her best friend told on her, I broke up with her and she begged for about a week and once I caved in she 180 uturn and somehow blamed me for everything. It broke me. I was lost for a long time, believing it was my fault but in reality, like she said… I can’t put words on what she said, she was confused. I wonder if she got it together now. I wonder If she knew it was me who called her. I can hear her now, sometimes. In my head. Its Weird. I loved her. I was going to ask her to marry me. Took 2 years to recover, I’m still healing. That’s my story, took one big hit, fell to 0 and now I’m rebuilding. If I could do it again, I would of not put life on pause for all those years, waiting and longing for her to come back. She never did and never called. I think I was a fool. I think I was her learning boyfriend. I don’t miss her anymore. I think about her often. I wonder why she remained quiet on the phone for so long without even saying hello, that’s not like her. I wonder if she knew it was me. I doubt it. why are you calling her? checking out her fb? You do to miss her or you wouldnt be doing this, let her go my friend once and for all
Author 2yearsNC Posted March 31, 2010 Author Posted March 31, 2010 I'm working on it friend. Soon I won't remember.
skydiveaddict Posted March 31, 2010 Posted March 31, 2010 I'm working on it friend. Soon I won't remember. I truly hope so .. for your sake.. good luck to ya
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