NC 60 Days

[secretlifeofjane28]

Hello-

 

I've been a lurker here for awhile, but wanted to post a "hello." I am 60 days NC today. I was in an A for about a year with a co-worker. Same story as others- he was my best friend, I thought he was my soul mate, blah blah blah. I am married and left my husband on more than one occasion because I was deep in the affair fog and thought my affair partner would come running. He did not. Do I think he cared about me? Yes. But he was not willing to move mountains to be with me. I got caught up in the fantasy. I became a person I did not recognize inside the affair. I lied, I sacrificed my self-worth and dignity. I am working now to regain all of that and put myself and my husband first.

 

I experienced 3 DDays and my husband is still here fighting for us. I have re-devoted myself to my marriage and I am working on it day by day. It is not easy. I have a long road to recovery, but at least now I am headed in the right direction.

 

I will pop in and post support from time to time. I just wanted to introduce myself before I did so.

 

Thanks

[Just a stone's throw]

Welcome Jane, glad you're here and congrats on the 60 days! I'm struggling with the NC, finding it very difficult. Needing it but difficult.

[secretlifeofjane28]

Thanks for the welcome. I can't wait until the day when I reach indifference and stop counting days. For now, each day under my belt is a small victory and keeps me moving forward.