keepinghope22 Posted March 28, 2010 Posted March 28, 2010 Hi all, So confused right now and don't want to talk to my ex (lol) so I thought I would come here for help. Got dumped nearly a month ago and have been on the worst emotional roller coaster ever since then. Quick backstory: We dated for 10 months, fell madly in love. Semi long distance (about an hour apart) saw each other every week or every other week, texted every day, called infrequently. Three months in I got sick, and unbeknownest to me, developed a medical problem that caused severe mood swings and depression. Like clockwork, every month, this would hit and I would be despondent. Felt like he didn't love me, etc... ad we would break up. So, roughly 7 months of one or the other breaking up and getting back together within a few days. This last time I was seriously depressed, and went to him for emotional support. He told me he couldn't deal with this anymore and said it was over. Next day I went to the doctor, found out the problem and got on medication to fix it. Here's how the next two weeks played out: Monday - he said it was over Tuesday - wrote, said he loved me and was there for me Wednesday - said he didn't mean it and we're over Thursday - said he loved me and wanted to work it out and just wanted to be together. Friday - said he didn't mean it Saturday - love me, had his family pic and was sad I wasn't in it, wanted to work it out. Sunday - it's over Monday - Thursday - no contact Thursday - wrote, said he loved me and was ready to give it another go. Said that no matter what I should never forget that he loves me and always will - no matter what he may say. Saturday - it's over and he didn't mean all the love bs he talked about. Sunday, I sent him an email detailing the exact nature of what i was going through medically and how the problem really was fixed. He responded to say he forgives me but just can't hop back in and act like everything is normal. No contact till Thursday this week when he wrote to see how I was doing. Told him fine, but cut the convo short. He blames the "i love you's" on being drunk at the time of saying it. At this point, I don't even want to talk to him - I can't handle all of this emotional stress. I don't want to slam the door in his face, but I just don't understand why someone would do this to someone else. I know I may not have been a peach to be around for 7 months, but I never once told him I didn't love him. And sadly - I do want him back and I do love him. Why would a dumper act this way and am I just holding on to false hope? It's just a knife through the heart every time - not to mention trying to get my own mood stabilized and get healthy during this time. I'm not doing any contact and deleted him from my facebook so I can't keep torturing myself. Some days are good and some days it just feels so damn painful. Just don't know what to make out of all of this. Thank you so much for reading and for any advice you can give.
skydiveaddict Posted March 28, 2010 Posted March 28, 2010 His behavior is strange to say the least. I think you should stay away from him.. Sounds to me like he enjoys playing w/your emotions
GrayClouds Posted March 28, 2010 Posted March 28, 2010 It really does not matter for it is disrespectful and hurtful, you deserve better.
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