ms.ac Posted March 26, 2010 Posted March 26, 2010 we were together for almost 5 yrs.. Its been 4 months, I hadn't seen him or talked to him, i accepted that he left and had someone else now. I was happier and living my life. HE started contacting me, I didn't even answer at first. He kept on contacting me, I answered and talked to him.. at first great... we had great convos.. he talked like he was good and changing and like he was single.. and made a mistake.. then he says he is still with the girl, i get kinda mad, he talks a bunch of crap about the girl.. says the difference between me and her was that i was someone you marry she isnt.. and he wasnt ready to get married.. then has me visit him and his fam.. my mistake for doing so... he cheats on his gf... then feels bad... and says he doesnt care about me anymore and ihave to get over it.. he cares about her.. i talk to him again at first it was fine.. then he brings her up.. and i get mad... i said some things.. set him off.. and he went on a rant completely bashing me and our whole relationship... putting me down.. telling me he used me for 5 yrs.. pretty much telling me im worthless.. and a joke.. his gf is so much better than me in everyway.. acting like his life is great.. and mine is nothing.. when he is the one with no job.. an ugly gross older divorced gf and he is a horrible person.. turning everything around like i was calling him when he was calling me... he said some horrible things to me.. of course it crushed me.. the thing is i thought i was over it.. well not over it but to a point that i was ok with it and moving on.. and he got back in my head and stupid me gave him exactly what he wanted.. and ego boost.. now im mad at myself for doing it.. i should have stopped at him saying he made a mistake.. and letting him regret it.. instead i let him put me down so that i feel horrible again... now i know i have to go NC completely again.. i just feel like i have ruined him regretting everything.. im confused.. and feeling horrible and he is feeling great because of it.. i know i just prolonged his relationship with this girl.. and im afraid i lost my ground.. I hope he regrets it.. where do i go from here.. ughh life sux
LucreziaBorgia Posted March 26, 2010 Posted March 26, 2010 Where to go from here? You pick yourself up, brush him off like dirt and then work back toward getting your head and heart back together. You are at square one again, and it won't be easy but perhaps this time around you'll have some anger helping you get back on track.
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