WantToGetExBack Posted March 26, 2010 Posted March 26, 2010 (edited) I never saw her in a year and half long distance relationship yet I feel as if I can never get over her. What's worse for me is she made some story about losing her phone month ago and hasn't got in touch, so I know she dumped me, but I wish she would've told me that. I realize everyone goes through these break ups etc, but what scares me the most is the feeling I will never fall in love again the same way I did with her. I want to move on but I can't get over her. It's been a month and I'm still crying as I post this. To be honest I wish I was dead so I wouldn't feel this pain. Why does that person who once told you they love you and you mean the world to them leave you in pain like this? She knows I'm still in pain after a month and begging her, but she won't get in touch and disconnects her phone. I know no other way to get in touch with her now as she lives in another country. I'm just confused and crying about one thing. I know I will find someone who will love me truly but why does it still scare me that it won't be her? Why do I still want her when I know she simply isn't worthy of all the love I gave her? How do I convince myself that I will fall in love again with someone else same way I did with her? Edited March 26, 2010 by WantToGetExBack
onewillburn Posted March 27, 2010 Posted March 27, 2010 You'll be a better person for the break up when it's all said and done. It's only been a month and change, give it more time and you'll start to feel better. That's why keeping yourself busy during the initial months of the break up is important. She said those things to you and I'm sure she meant them when she said them, but the way people and things are always growing and changing in different ways is one of the lessons you're learning now. You have to be careful how much stock you put into what people say in regards to "forever". Do you know exactly how you'll feel about any particular person or thing in five years? Then how can somebody else?
spriggig Posted March 27, 2010 Posted March 27, 2010 ...but the way people and things are always growing and changing in different ways is one of the lessons you're learning now... This is an aside, but look at those words above. Someday, someone is going to lay the excuse on you during a breakup that "People never change". It's completely false, what they are really saying is that they are denying responsibility for something they've done and then they are blaming the issue on you.
This Hurts Posted March 27, 2010 Posted March 27, 2010 I know EXACTLY how you feel, and I apologize that I have nothing else to offer you except having someone you can relate to. We're on the same boat.
Author WantToGetExBack Posted March 28, 2010 Author Posted March 28, 2010 Thanks for replies guys. It's been month and while I have started making efforts now to help myself, it still feels awful. I was out whole day and evening, and as soon as came back home, just couldn't help but grab whole bunch of tissue papers and cried. I just knew it and I couldn't control it. It's like even when I make a whole hearted effort to feel better, I still end up feeling like ****. Not just her but even my friends are sick of me now, everyone I message on MSN, they don't care to reply because they know what I'm going to talk about. I just had a friend who said bye on phone because of all this:mad:. I feel like a ****ing burden. I hope after all this I can be stronger but right now I am just plain weak and ashamed of myself.
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