DramaFree Posted March 25, 2010 Posted March 25, 2010 I broke NC again twice in 4 days and promise myself today I gotta stick to it. The best reason is I have always been the one to break down previously we would reunite and be back in this cycle of push an dpull.....part of me think he expects me too and I dont want to give him the satisfation but I know breaking NC he gets it everytime. I do want to break free of the crumbs I felt I was getting. I texted him last night - Weds. are the hardest ya know? His response : I know it is. I think he is freaking playing me! Which totally pissed me off. I am reading the NC guide again because I know it works! Why didnt I break it. 1) why is it responded within seconds as within the last few weeks before he broke up it might be no response or hours 2) He know it is? What kind of response is that. Sounds like he knows I am suffering? and he enjoys it. I gotta stop to get my sanity back!
counterman Posted March 25, 2010 Posted March 25, 2010 Seems like you have learnt your lesson. Do not fret that you have already broken No Contact. A lot of us have and, afterwards, like yourself, we learn that it doesn't do us any good. He knows that you are suffering and he probably does take enjoyment out of it. In saying that, who cares about him. Just look after yourself and the first thing you should do is commit yourself completely to No Contact. I should warn you though even if you stick to No Contact, he may try and feed you bread crumbs to see if you will crack i.e. he'll contact you first in hope that you will reply. Never ever reply. Good idea to read over NC guide and keep yourself busy as well.
Author DramaFree Posted March 25, 2010 Author Posted March 25, 2010 Thxs for the support I know you are right. have some busy weeks ahead so that should make it easy. i dont want to reward him for his bad behaviour by giving in but i do know it helps me to not even poke him and try to get anything. NC does mend me to not fall for his crap. I do know if I can get a couple of weeks NC I can stick to it. Heck the sad thing is I was actually getting tired of his crap and really thought about there is no future and wanted out - i think it was just habit or just being the dumpee because you analyize it to the 10th degree. Thanks Again!
GrayClouds Posted March 25, 2010 Posted March 25, 2010 Your stroking his ego, confirming his reasons for the brake up and feeling like the big man. I can hear him now to his friends, "I am such a stud, I give this girl such good loving, the crazy chick can not let me go" Stop. .
StrugglingS Posted March 25, 2010 Posted March 25, 2010 I broke NC again twice in 4 days and promise myself today I gotta stick to it. The best reason is I have always been the one to break down previously we would reunite and be back in this cycle of push an dpull.....part of me think he expects me too and I dont want to give him the satisfation but I know breaking NC he gets it everytime. I do want to break free of the crumbs I felt I was getting. I texted him last night - Weds. are the hardest ya know? His response : I know it is. I think he is freaking playing me! Which totally pissed me off. I am reading the NC guide again because I know it works! Why didnt I break it. 1) why is it responded within seconds as within the last few weeks before he broke up it might be no response or hours 2) He know it is? What kind of response is that. Sounds like he knows I am suffering? and he enjoys it. I gotta stop to get my sanity back! I would interprete his reply in one of two ways: He knows it is - he appreciates how hard it is, but he's not prepared to change his mind. A good reason to go back to NC and stick to it this time.He's just saying that he knows it is for you, and doesn't particularly care. Another good reason to go back to NC and stick to it this time. Either way, he doesn't sound particularly like the sort of guy you should be spending your time and effort on. It'll take time - lots and lots of time - but all of a sudden you will realise that you've not thought of him in a while, and that horrible feeling you'd been dealing with hasn't made itself known in a while. You're better than this, and you can do better than him. Give yourself a chance to find someone who actually deserves you.
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