thepulse27 Posted March 20, 2010 Posted March 20, 2010 There are a lot of strange feelings in me right now. Yesterday I was offered a job in Australia. Last night my visa was granted. This morning I booked my ticket. I'm going in June. This is exactly what I wanted and where I want to be. I am so happy and so excited to get out there and do what I love again. But as I clicked 'confirm purchase' for the flight I felt completely dazed. There is something that has been true for a long time, but I think locking myself into this decision actually made it real for me: I will probably never see her again. She lives in a different part of the world to me, our paths will never cross. I feel............................................. I have absolutely no idea what to say.
bubbles5 Posted March 20, 2010 Posted March 20, 2010 why dont u get her mobile or contact number so atleast u can b in touch,, try to look at positive side if u want something u have to work on it,, not just run away
Author thepulse27 Posted March 20, 2010 Author Posted March 20, 2010 Longer story than that mate. I'm sure we will have some kind of contact at some point. But we were only ever in the same place because of each other. Now that's over we will probably never be in the same place in the world again. It was just the brutal finality of that that hit me.
DenverBachelor Posted March 20, 2010 Posted March 20, 2010 Longer story than that mate. I'm sure we will have some kind of contact at some point. But we were only ever in the same place because of each other. Now that's over we will probably never be in the same place in the world again. It was just the brutal finality of that that hit me. Never say never. I've seen some really crazy **** happen (especially the past few weeks -- but that's because I've gone down some crazy alleys). Life has a habit of always proving you wrong when you least expect it. So keep living your dreams and stop comparing the fork in the road to where you're going now. You passed that fork -- let it go. It doesn't really matter, man. All roads eventually lead to Rome.
Author thepulse27 Posted March 20, 2010 Author Posted March 20, 2010 DB: I know you're right mate, and I am chasing my own dreams now, and doing fairly well in most respects (moving 11'000 miles in 3 months for them!). And I know the door is never completely closed on anything, particularly something that stays with you like this. But it doesn't matter how much you say, or I say to myself 'don't think like that' or 'just live for yourself', even though we're right. This is, I guess, another stage in the passing of a significant part of my life, and it's probably gonna weigh on my mind for a while. Did you experience anything like this? Was there ever a moment when that kind of hit home? Because this wasn't a crying my eyes out moment, more like a 'wow, i need to sit for a moment in silence while that sinks in'.
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