FallenAngelGrl Posted March 19, 2010 Posted March 19, 2010 I can't even talk. All day I've been crying, not eating. Just smoking my cigarettes and having coffee. My eyeballs are puffy and my heart aches. I haven't felt like this in 10 years! Can't stop listening to "our song" I just want to sleep it all away.....
monkeymaid Posted March 19, 2010 Posted March 19, 2010 sleep, and feel bad for 2 days get it out. cry till it hurts, then cry more. stop listening to that song, run, bike, exercise, dance, surf, hike do anything!!!!!!!! for heavens sake, read a book, go out with your friends, work more write a book, play a guitar, or drums, hit a puncing bag, do summersaults till youre dizzy, take up knitting this pain only goes a way with time. i know you hurt BAD!!!! right now. ...I really know. most people that post here are hurting BAD too. ...post anytime you want to, and ask questions too. were all here for you.
OOReeee Posted March 19, 2010 Posted March 19, 2010 you came to the right place, this is what we're here for. Feel free to vent, b*tch, do whatever. Be strong.
Author FallenAngelGrl Posted March 19, 2010 Author Posted March 19, 2010 I feel I can't deal with this. It's so fresh. I'm feel so hopeless and stupid!
USMCHokie Posted March 19, 2010 Posted March 19, 2010 I feel I can't deal with this. It's so fresh. I'm feel so hopeless and stupid! Heh, we've all been there...done it...got the t-shirt... You'll find that LS is a great place to let it all out and even learn a thing or two...
Author FallenAngelGrl Posted March 19, 2010 Author Posted March 19, 2010 He called me today to say "we need to talk" he called me 13 times! To tell me that he loves a girl he dated for 4 months and broke up over an argument. i was probably his 'rebound" girl but I fell so hard for him and it's the first time in years that I "opened" up my heart to him. He even asked me if I would talk to her when he calls me tomorrow night so that I can tell her that we are over! He wants me to help him make it work out with her because she knows about me and wants to be sure he will never come back to me! I don't believe he loves her, she's married and still living with her hubby and has 2 kids! They were "friends" for 1.5 years but he never told me he had dated her! We recently had an argument because he was being "distant" and I kicked him out of my place. We hadn't spoken for a few days when 3 days ago we went out to talk at a restaurant and he cried and told me he loved me. How can he switch on me so fast? What happened 3 days ago? I'm floored and crushed.
skydiveaddict Posted March 19, 2010 Posted March 19, 2010 (edited) I can't even talk. All day I've been crying, not eating. Just smoking my cigarettes and having coffee. My eyeballs are puffy and my heart aches. I haven't felt like this in 10 years! Can't stop listening to "our song" I just want to sleep it all away..... It wont "smoke" away. Quit with the song. As hard as it is, get off the couch, go get some exercise. This will pass I swear. Edited March 19, 2010 by skydiveaddict
Author FallenAngelGrl Posted March 19, 2010 Author Posted March 19, 2010 I drifted off to sleep (had a sleeping pill) and woke up feeling pretty good. The sun is shining and I took a shower, shaved and even put on some makeup, styled my hair and even put perfume on. I wanted to go for a walk to the tanning salon and maybe get some UV therapy but suddenly I don't want to go out. I weighed myself and I lost 8 pounds already. I feel weak and still unable to eat. I cried all night and today I haven't shed a tear yet but I have a lump in my throat. He told me he would come see me today at 2:30 but he hasn't called or shown up. I wanted to be "out" of the house while he called so it wouldn't look like I'm depressed over him but I am still on my couch. Coffee and smoking. I wrote him a card last night with a short message about "sorry it didn't work out, maybe we can be friends sometime in the near future" I was going to mail it to his place but I'm not sure I want to send it anymore. I read about No Contact and it's my first day. Everytime the phone rings, my heart skips a beat only to find out it's not him. Been talking to him "in my head" all day long. Having conversations with him. Some of them are questions I'm asking him and some of them are me trying to rehearse how I would be cheerful and upbeat if he ever called me to talk. I just took another sleeping pill because I don't think I can handle the rest of the day with my thoughts of him. That's all I seem to want to do. Just think and ask questions to myself. I so wonder if he's thinking about me. If he misses me, if he feels sad like me. I just want to hear him say, he chose the girl because our relationship was only one month and his with her was 3 months longer but he wants to try it out with her first to be sure how he feels about me. Deep down inside, I think he is settling with someone who is "unavailable ie: married" because it feels safer than to be with me ie: single, successful, independant, no minor children , beautiful inside and out and he probably thinks that a girl like me would eventually dump him because he is broke. I'm not a materialistic girl. I rather be broke and happy than rich and miserable. AND HE KNOWS IT! So today is day 1 of NC, I hope it gets easier. I have my moments where I can stand strong (for a few minutes) then crumble. How much longer?
just1guy Posted March 20, 2010 Posted March 20, 2010 (edited) Whatever you do, don't send that card, post it here instead. Trust me, sending them a card, email, or whatever does nothing and will only make it worse when they don't reply back. Just hang on to it and wait until your emotions are in check, then you can think logically if it is the best thing to do. Like everyone said, we've all been there. I've definitely done my share of obsessing, crying, yelling, swearing, you name it, I've cussed them out. You just gotta find things to do like....oh and lay off the cigs and get outside and walk around, or hang out with friends. edit: Just read your post about his the other girl....WTF. He is a total mess, guys that go after someone who's in a relationship are pieces of **** in my book. That's how my ex broke up with me. Stay NC, don't even call that girl for him, that's a whole lot of drama just waiting to explode and be glad that you're not in that trash. Edited March 20, 2010 by just1guy
LovelyDaze Posted March 20, 2010 Posted March 20, 2010 I drifted off to sleep (had a sleeping pill) and woke up feeling pretty good. The sun is shining and I took a shower, shaved and even put on some makeup, styled my hair and even put perfume on. I wanted to go for a walk to the tanning salon and maybe get some UV therapy but suddenly I don't want to go out. I weighed myself and I lost 8 pounds already. I feel weak and still unable to eat. I cried all night and today I haven't shed a tear yet but I have a lump in my throat. He told me he would come see me today at 2:30 but he hasn't called or shown up. I wanted to be "out" of the house while he called so it wouldn't look like I'm depressed over him but I am still on my couch. Coffee and smoking. I wrote him a card last night with a short message about "sorry it didn't work out, maybe we can be friends sometime in the near future" I was going to mail it to his place but I'm not sure I want to send it anymore. I read about No Contact and it's my first day. Everytime the phone rings, my heart skips a beat only to find out it's not him. Been talking to him "in my head" all day long. Having conversations with him. Some of them are questions I'm asking him and some of them are me trying to rehearse how I would be cheerful and upbeat if he ever called me to talk. I just took another sleeping pill because I don't think I can handle the rest of the day with my thoughts of him. That's all I seem to want to do. Just think and ask questions to myself. I so wonder if he's thinking about me. If he misses me, if he feels sad like me. I just want to hear him say, he chose the girl because our relationship was only one month and his with her was 3 months longer but he wants to try it out with her first to be sure how he feels about me. Deep down inside, I think he is settling with someone who is "unavailable ie: married" because it feels safer than to be with me ie: single, successful, independant, no minor children , beautiful inside and out and he probably thinks that a girl like me would eventually dump him because he is broke. I'm not a materialistic girl. I rather be broke and happy than rich and miserable. AND HE KNOWS IT! So today is day 1 of NC, I hope it gets easier. I have my moments where I can stand strong (for a few minutes) then crumble. How much longer? Sorry that you are hurting. WE KNOW! Just as advised, please don't call him for anything. Any "positive" feedback you would get are just crumbs. Don't have him string you along by putting the label "friend" either. You would then be relegated as a backup plan in case he and the ex don't work out. Speaking of his ex...married? That is just an awful mess that you should be thrilled to be out of. Your ex BF showed you that he has no boundaries and doesn't care who he hurts...you, the ex's husband, and the kids. Stay NC. It's a win-win situation. If he never calls, Good. At least you didn't call either and proved your dignity is solid. If he DOES call, Good. Because you proved that you were moving on with your life and here he is...calling, texting and e-mailing(like my ex did). Don't give him the time of day.
Author FallenAngelGrl Posted March 21, 2010 Author Posted March 21, 2010 I didn't send the card, I didn't go out. I slept instead. Sleeping seems to help me alot. I didn't delete his phone number so that I can "screen" his calls. I instead changed the name to "DON'T ANSWER!" Asleep on my couch, my phone wakes me up, it's only 6 pm. I answer it and he says, "Open the door, I'm downstairs" I let him in because I want to hear what's on his mind and see his body language too. He tells me that he is torn between me and her. He tells me that they broke up only 2 weeks before he met me. The reason for the break up was because she wouldn't leave her husband just yet and they had been living together for 3 months. She packed up and left him to return to her husband. He moved on. He met me. The sparks flew the very first time we met and its been "intense" in every way. Emotionally, physically, sexually too. Everything was fine until we had an argument and I kicked him out. Meanwhile, she "finds out" about me - the other woman and contacts him to tell him that she loves him and is in the process of leaving her husband. This is what he's always wanted and now she delivers this message to him while we were "broken up" for a few days. She gets into the picture! He is tormented because he never expected to "fall in love" with me - but he did and so did I. I can see it in his eyes and I can also feel it when he talks to me. He's trying to convince himself that he should be with her. I tell him she is his "past" and I am his "future". We cry, we hug, we kiss and yes.........we made love. It didn't feel "wrong". He left and called me 2 minutes later. His car got "towed". So together we got his car back (turns out its her car) and it was 5am and I asked him to just stay over at my place but he said he couldn't. I got out of the car and just said "ciao bello" and went back home thinking to myself, "**** it! move on, this is too much drama for me" I slept like a baby and woke up feeling optimistic that I can do this. I went to work (home business) and everything was pretty good until he called. I couldn't not answer again. He was upset at how I said goodbye as if it was final. I told him every time I try to "move on" he keeps sucking me back in. "Let's get this over with!" She wants my number so that she can talk to me and tell her that we are broken up so she is sure that he's "single". I told him I could not do that. I will tell the truth. "We fell in love and you came into the picture and he chose you but is still seeing me" We argued. He told me he's going out of his mind and just wants to dump her ass. I told him he should dump the both of us and that's that. We argued some more and then the phone went dead. I called my friend and told him to come pick me up as I am about to go "mad". So I took off to my friends place to spend the night. I didn't want to be alone with my thoughts. I called my ex back that evening and said, "Lose my number, don't call me, don't show up at my door, I'm moving on" He said, "Good! Don't call me either!" and hung up on my face. 20 minutes later I recieve a text: "You want nothing more to do with me...ok. I just erased you... have a great life with all your "better" men..." I didn't reply and was almost relieved to know that he erased me. This way he won't call me, she won;t call me and I can move on. This morning I wake up and I see 1 missed phone call. It's him. He didn't leave a message. Why did he call me? Today, I'm resolving myself to moving on. No contact. Do not reply to his phone calls or texts. But I feel that "it's not over". I want to be strong but part of me imagines that he will bang down my door and pronounce his love for me and that he dumped that bitch. Part of me wants him to chose me and we work it out and be together. I don't know what to do. I feel like going on "vacation" for a month until all of this "subsides" but I can't afford it and my business will suffer. I want to stay at my friend's house for a few days at least so that I don't have to fear him showing up at my door. My friend tells me to call the cops if he does show up. I don't think I can do that. I don't think I want to do that either. What do I do!?? Just ignore the door? It would be extremely difficult to know he's at my door while I'm inside my place and not answering. This is consuming my thoughts..... How do I move on??
LovelyDaze Posted March 21, 2010 Posted March 21, 2010 I didn't delete his phone number so that I can "screen" his calls. I instead changed the name to "DON'T ANSWER!" The only part that I cheered was changing his name to "don't answer" on your phone. BRILLIANT! The rest is bad for sure. Your 1st boo-boo was to even answer the door to him. Of course it didn't feel wrong sleeping with him because crumbs taste great when you are hungry. You deserve a meal and you won't get that meal from him. Let me tell you something, EVEN if he dumps the other one for you, at the FIRST sign of trouble, he will go running back to her OR another girl. I can place a cash money bet on that. See how breaking NC has caused even more drama and heartache? You do not need or deserve to be used this way. My ex was even sweeter than that. He asked me to wait for him when he comes back from Afghanistan so that he can "properly" dump his new fiancee' and get back together with me on a clean slate. I didn't accept that BS and he went running back to her lickity split! Your ex is keeping you as a backup plan. He is not torn. He knows EXACTLY what he is doing. Love is an action word. If he really loved you, he'd have already weighed the pros and cons and made a decision. But why should you wait to see whom he chooses? YOU make the choice if living like this is making you happy. It isn't fun or do you like the dramatics of it as well? If you don't and you want to have a stable, mature, honest, trustworthy and above all, loving relationship...with anybody, you need to go back to NC, not answer the door, not answer his calls, stop playing games with each other period, and work on loving yourself enough not to waste anymore time on someone who doesn't love you 100%.
hoping2heal Posted March 21, 2010 Posted March 21, 2010 OP, rest assured that some breakups are for the best. In the case of one partner wanting someone else - that is most assuredly true. If you think you felt wonderful in this relationship - wait until you are in one where the man is just as crazy about you as you are him. I know it hurts and you feel betrayed but obviously you were always no. 2 to this man while someone else was no.1. Even if you stayed together that would be the case, aren't you glad you found that out now? Would you want to stay with him just for the sake of it and be his no. 2 just to have him around?
Author FallenAngelGrl Posted March 21, 2010 Author Posted March 21, 2010 14 hours No Contact - 6 of them sleeping. Changed ringer style on his number to "silent" but I keep looking at my phone to see if he called. I do believe he is "torn". This just hit the both of us at the same time. Why did she contact him? She dumped him! I think she's only acting "territorial" and feeding him "crumbs" and ****ing up our relationship because she only started this AFTER she found out he moved on! THE BITCH! "If I can't have YOU, nobody will!" - That's what I think it is! She is reopening wounds! He MOVED ON you bitch! Why are you doing this? And what's with wanting my phone number to call me for? How old are you -15? No matter what I say to you, you will never be satisfied and take him back! You know it as well as I DO! You just can't accept that you're losing him and that he "fell in love" NOooooooooooooooo! You can't have that! If you truly loved him you would waste no time and leave your husband for him! Now look what you're putting US BOTH through! You must be very pleased that you have this CONTROL over him, because that's what it is, isn't it!? You don't want him, you don't love him, you just don't want him to be HAPPY with another woman! You best not call me even if you get my number out of him. I won't tell you what you want to hear. I will tell you the truth! You are driving him mad and we love each other. We slept together less than 48 hours ago. If he loved you, he wouldn't sleep with me. We both came at the same time! We cry when we make love because it is so intense! Stop tormenting him! I can give him 110% of me and you can't even give him 10% WTF??? 2 years you've been trying to "divorce" your husband? What's stopping you? Money? Kids? Too much trouble? You can never see him anyway. You can't even get out of the house. The weekends are spent with your hubby and kids. The weekdays with your job. What can you offer him that I cannot? I spend my hours thinking, reading, planning how I will react when I see DON'T ANSWER! My television set is turned on to the building's security camera channel - watching - looking to see if he will "show up" unannounced. I can't function on an hourly basis because I'm CONSUMED by this! Our little break up was nothing so bad that we couldn't work it out. **** YOU VERY MUCH! I want to be strong, I want to shut off all the "conversations" in my head! I can't stop talking to him, yelling at him, crying out to him. Day 1 of no contact and it feels like an eternity! How am I going to make it to DAY 2??? I WANT TO DO THIS! It hurts so bad. I'm so much stronger than this, I know, I've been through this before and that is EXACTLY why I've never been able to give my heart to anyone!!!!!!!!!! It's not getting easier for me, it's getting harder. I need more information and looking in the forums about NO CONTACT rules. How do I deal with the withdrawal symptoms? I feel so weak.
hoping2heal Posted March 21, 2010 Posted March 21, 2010 14 hours No Contact - 6 of them sleeping. Changed ringer style on his number to "silent" but I keep looking at my phone to see if he called. I do believe he is "torn". This just hit the both of us at the same time. Why did she contact him? She dumped him! I think she's only acting "territorial" and feeding him "crumbs" and ****ing up our relationship because she only started this AFTER she found out he moved on! THE BITCH! Here's the thing. If he were "torn" he likely wouldn't of dumped you. In fact, he's more likely to keep hush hush to you while he mulls everything over and tries to sort it out in his head - who he really wants. That just isn't what happened here. That said, maybe she is a bitch. Maybe she is just playing head games but the point is, wether she is genuine in her efforts to rekindle or not when she threw out the bait he went chasing after it. That means the feelings for her were still there and stronger for her than you, regardless of how well he kept it hidden. "If I can't have YOU, nobody will!" - That's what I think it is! She is reopening wounds! Maybe so. No one knows wether her intentions are good. However, she did NOT put a gun to his head and force him to be with her. This was his decision it was his CHOICE because deep in his heart this is where his heart trully was and who with. He MOVED ON you bitch! Why are you doing this? And what's with wanting my phone number to call me for? How old are you -15? No matter what I say to you, you will never be satisfied and take him back! You know it as well as I DO! You just can't accept that you're losing him and that he "fell in love" NOooooooooooooooo! You can't have that! If you truly loved him you would waste no time and leave your husband for him! Now look what you're putting US BOTH through! Well, I'm in agreement that there is some serious drama going on there. However, as much as it may hurt to hear this - if he really moved on he wouldn't of dumped you for her. It's as simple as that. I have had exes come back into my life after I moved on - do you think I went back to them just because they showed up? Of course not. I trully HAD moved on and was over the guy and 110% in love with the guy I was with. So, I didn't go back to him - I just told him that I had no interest in having him back in my life in any capacity. No drama - no fuss- no muss. It was like..a 2 minute conversation and done. However, that isn't what happened with your guy. I'm not saying he doesn't care for you but caring and being in love are two different things and if he can choose an ex who is still married - so technically not even available over you - I'm sorry but that doesn't sound like someone who was actually "in love." You must be very pleased that you have this CONTROL over him, because that's what it is, isn't it!? You don't want him, you don't love him, you just don't want him to be HAPPY with another woman! If she has any control over him- it's because HE still cares. You best not call me even if you get my number out of him. I won't tell you what you want to hear. I will tell you the truth! You are driving him mad and we love each other. We slept together less than 48 hours ago. If he loved you, he wouldn't sleep with me. We both came at the same time! We cry when we make love because it is so intense! I don't want to sound repetitive here so see above Our little break up was nothing so bad that we couldn't work it out. **** YOU VERY MUCH! Okay but why do you want too? If what he really wants is another woman why do YOU want to settle for THOSE crumbs? I want to be strong, I want to shut off all the "conversations" in my head! I can't stop talking to him, yelling at him, crying out to him. Day 1 of no contact and it feels like an eternity! How am I going to make it to DAY 2??? I WANT TO DO THIS! It hurts so bad. I'm so much stronger than this, I know, I've been through this before and that is EXACTLY why I've never been able to give my heart to anyone!!!!!!!!!! It's not getting easier for me, it's getting harder. I need more information and looking in the forums about NO CONTACT rules. How do I deal with the withdrawal symptoms? I feel so weak. Day 1 is terribly hard. It will get easier with time and you begin to process what happened. I think you just might change your perspective when you're able to realise that a man who is in love with someone else is NOT your end all/be all.
LovelyDaze Posted March 21, 2010 Posted March 21, 2010 Maybe so. No one knows wether her intentions are good. However, she did NOT put a gun to his head and force him to be with her. This was his decision it was his CHOICE because deep in his heart this is where his heart trully was and who with. If she has any control over him- it's because HE still cares. Please read hoping2heal's post word for word and especially those two hints of advice I especially agreed with. Fallen, if your ex is acting like a puppet only coming alive when there is drama around. Like h2h stated, Your ex is a big boy that can make his own decisions. He keeps messing around with her because he WANTS to. And think about this as food for thought...Why in the world would you want someone that can be easily swayed with their own emotions this way? For example: He surely could get back together with you this evening and you all are happy for 6 months. One day, he is at work and a gorgeous and lively girl starts there. They get to know each other over the course of 3 months while he is with you and then he starts coming by less and less...then, doesn't pick up his phone or text you back as quickly...then, he comes and tells you that he is "torn"...again. How often do you want to go through that? Obviously he can be easily swayed by a married ex so he can be easily be swayed by a fresh, new pretty girl tomorrow. His logic is off course and he has no maturity whatsoever in handling a relationship. If he really cared about you (instead of himself), he'd dedicate himself to dumping this ex 101% and focus solely on working things out with you. Yes, I've been through so-called "love triangles" But the thing is, it was always clear who I loved much more and who I can let go in life. No, he is not torn at all. What your ex wants is a Girl #1 and a Girl #2. What he doesn't want, is to lose having a choice just in case the other gets some self-esteem and dumps his a$$. I'd LOVE for you to be the one to show him what you are really made of. Stay strong. Trust me, the thing you're in now? Will not turn out good if you keep letting him back in your life.
Author FallenAngelGrl Posted March 21, 2010 Author Posted March 21, 2010 @hoping2heal Thank you for making taking the time to open my eyes. As much as I hate to admit it, you are right. I'm finding day 1 very difficult and I'm going to read forums here until I pass out again. I still just want to sleep. I set my cell phone to "silent" for every call. I can't go through my heart skipping a beat every time the phone rings. I turned off the house line used for the intercom downstairs to let people in the building - lest he should make another attempt to show up unexpectedly. I started cleaning up and FOUND HIS UNDERWEAR in between the couch cushions! Duly threw it in the garbage. *Blocked him from twitter and instant messenger. *Deleted all pictures of him (that was very difficult) *Found a movie we made a few weeks ago (no its not a sex movie, it was really cute comedy show which made me laugh-cry) and deleted it but it still sits in the recycle bin. I know I should empty the bin but I'm just NOT ready yet but I will I will I will. *Have thrown teddy bear, dried flowers, champagne cork screws, concert tickets and any "memories" that he INSISTED we "collect" during our time together. *Found a hand-print on my closet mirror by the entry door to my appartment when he leaned in and kissed me, WIPED THE GLASS! *Threw out his razor which he forgot to pack before leaving. I'm doing "somewhat good" in trying to erase any reminders of him and I know I could do better. I've yet to clean the bedsheets which we shared 2 nights ago but I will do that as well when I wake up. I'm very glad I found this place or I could have done something "drastic" to myself. Perhaps not, but I was entertaining the thought. What a mess I'm in to even think that! I feel very weak because I still love him and I don't know if I have the strength to just move on. It's best to use the no contact rule or I would crumble again. I'm trying to convince myself that I can do this, even though I don't want to. I'm occupying my time by reading threads it helps to know that others are going through or have gone through this. I wish to wake up a little stronger every day until I'm completely over him and wouldn't crumble at the thought or sight of him, nor the sound of his voice.
LovelyDaze Posted March 21, 2010 Posted March 21, 2010 I wish to wake up a little stronger every day until I'm completely over him and wouldn't crumble at the thought or sight of him, nor the sound of his voice. THAT is guaranteed to happen. Just test out NC for even 1 week. See how much stronger you feel. It is overwhelmingly powerful.
hoping2heal Posted March 21, 2010 Posted March 21, 2010 I know right now the pain is overwhelming and very dis-orienting. But if you think what the two of you shared NOW was good? Just wait until the day that a man truly feels you in the bottom of his soul. When you are the only one, not just the one he's with and his occupying his time while his mind and heart are stuck on someone else. When you find the man who can just breathe you in and immerse himself so deeply in you - that will make what happened here look like a duck pond. You will realize that what happened here was a learning experience and you will even see the value in it. Of course you know, not everyone meets "that man" or "that woman" and most of the time ? That's because they are too distracted by someone like THIS - someone who isn't right for them. Someone who can't connect and understand them at their core. So, really? It is what's best for your chances of meeting that guy who will be so unabashedly in love with you and vice versa - if your head isn't stuck in the wrong clouds.
Author FallenAngelGrl Posted March 22, 2010 Author Posted March 22, 2010 Why am I feeling so weak right now? I just woke up from a nap and was glad that I didn't receive any calls from him. My ringer is set to "SILENT". I'm reading the boards here. He just called but I didn't hear it. He left me a voicemail: "Yeah baby, it's me, call me okay!?" My whole body is in knots! He's calling me again right now and I'm keeping my hands on the keyboard. I'm using every ounce of strength not to answer! He's calling me again! i wish I was sleeping instead of going through this. I;m calling my friend!
skydiveaddict Posted March 22, 2010 Posted March 22, 2010 Why am I feeling so weak right now? I just woke up from a nap and was glad that I didn't receive any calls from him. My ringer is set to "SILENT". I'm reading the boards here. He just called but I didn't hear it. He left me a voicemail: "Yeah baby, it's me, call me okay!?" My whole body is in knots! He's calling me again right now and I'm keeping my hands on the keyboard. I'm using every ounce of strength not to answer! He's calling me again! i wish I was sleeping instead of going through this. I;m calling my friend! block his number
monkeymaid Posted March 22, 2010 Posted March 22, 2010 go walk around the block RIGHT NOW!!!!! leave the phone at home and just go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Author FallenAngelGrl Posted March 22, 2010 Author Posted March 22, 2010 He's coming over. He hasn't made a "decision" about the OW (other woman) He said when I said: "I don't want to be #2" it hit him hard and he realized that's exactly what's happening with her. He's #2 He's coming over....Less than 24 hours NC and he's coming over. I want him to come over and listen to him and see how I feel. I told him he already made a decision and he said he DID NOT! He needs to talk to me. He hasn't seen her. She won't stop calling him. I'm going to try to be strong. I feel I want to be there for him because I won't just give up on him yet. I'm glad I answered the phone. No regrets. I need this. If I am ****, I am ****. It's not over until the FAT LADY sings.
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