Canadaleaf Posted March 13, 2010 Posted March 13, 2010 Ok here is the story. Dated for a couple of months. Everything was going great(ya I bet you all of heard this before and you know were this is going lol). Then it all went sour. She wanted a break. Ok I was fine, at least she still wanted to be with me. Found out later she needed to find her happy even though at the end of the relationship she said I made her happy. I wanted to go NC because well it would be weird right? She didn't want me to stop talking to her though, so i didn't. About a month into the break things seem to be getting better. Then all of a sudden she just stops talking to me(which really really sucked!). I had no idea why,so I asked her about it. Her and her best friend were going through something, but the next day there fine, and shes still talking to everyone else except me. So the other day I am like do you still want to be with me, its kinda hard being stuck in limbo like this, sad even and I fianlly get the answer.(this is after like 3 weeks of NC). She doesn't want to try because Im leaving to go work in April.(Yes this is a Highschool relationship, I already have graduated so I am starting work in April to get some $$$.) The reason she doens't want to try is because she tried before with two guys and both times failed and she can't get that out of her head. However there is a difference between them 2 and me. All of her BF she has had in the past have been complete dicks. The first one cheated on her after a year and a half. The second one told her best friend she had more feelings for her, then my ex. The third one was just in it for sex. She told me many times I was her first good bf and was glad she was fianlly getting treated right, which I think every girl needs to be treated. I would never do anything like that to a girl. I treated her with the respect she deserved and any women deserves. Guess the saying is true, Good guys never win . She still likes me, I know she does. When she broke up with me she asked to still be friends because she doesn't want to "lose me".(more on this later.) Also on Facebook last night she posted this as her status: and I was like "babyy babyy babyy, ohh! like, babyy babyy babyy, noo! I thought you'd always be minee(song by Justin Bieber I think) which is kinda symbolic because the song she gave to me was I call you mine by Martina Mcbride. Now back to the friend thing. She still wants to be friends, but I told her I can't talk to her for awhile because I need to lose my feelings for her. She was saddened by this and I didn't know why at first, I thought it was understandable like she was the one breaking up with me. However I then found out yesterday that she didn't want to give me my sweaters back(she did, had to like chase her down) because she didn't want me to stop talking to her. However I need to lose my feelings for her. The thing I don't understand though is, It seems like she didn't really want to break up(neither did I), but did because of past expeirences. I feel like I'm not getting the fair chance that I deserve because of previous dick boyfrieinds treating her wrong and making it that she can't try when I leave to go work. Its not like were even going to be far away from each other. 40 minutes thats it! The problem I have though is I want to prove to her that I can be that guy that treats her like she should be treated. The guy that deserves the chance at proving that it can work when i leave. The guy that proves to her that you shouldn't let past experiences affect you! However if I start talking to her again shes going to think my feelings for her are gone, when they won't be. I am going to a Toga party this Thursday, and I am sure she will be there. I want to say something then, but don't know if its right. Like I wouldn't bring up the relationship I would just have a small conversation with her. So my question is, should I continue no contact and hope she makes first contact even though I told her not to talk to me until I got over her, or say something first? Tough situation I know, considering we both still like each other...
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