This last week has been really hard.

[Andrew1984]

Boy its been tough. 8 months ago my girlfriend of 4 years woke up one morning and told me she was leaving. Just blindsided me and left me devestated. was doing alright for the last 3 months but I seem to have relapsed and slipped into massive depression again.

 

I miss her a great deal. I broke NC the other day and was shot down pretty bad. see that thread here http://www.loveshack.org/forums/t224119/

 

Ive been having the feeling lately that I will never love again. Sounds cliche I know but I just have no desire to go and date other woman and cant see it in the future either. Im stuck loving and missing someone that wants nothing to do with me and would prefer if they never saw me ever again.

 

Anyway, I dont know what its gona take. I just want to be on with my life and be happy even if I have to go it alone. I just want to be free of this. To wake up and smile just to be alive and because the sun is shining rather than instantly thinking about the missing you know who. I'll wake up in the middle of the night thinking about her.

 

I feel ashamed to be a man because ive let her drag me down instead of rising above it and becoming a better person. .well, not her I guess ive let myself drag me down.

 

Dont really know where im going with this so i'll end it. Self pity sucks.

 

-Andrew

[rand0m]

It's a sh*tty time of the year. Weather sucks, no big vacay's coming up, days are still dark, summer seems like it's still so far away.

Once the sun comes out, put on some music in the mornings, have a coffee, sit back and enjoy the warmth.

 

You gotta chill, man. Watch Californication and it'll make you look at things differently. Take a step back, you can't spend your life worrying about "love", or finding someone else. It'll happen when you're not looking. Girls can sense that **** and will avoid you like the plague.

[Tasha1675]

I know how you feel Andrew. All I can say is you're not alone, it feels really crap now but one day it won't.

I am also wishing I didn't feel this way and am waiting to wake up and feel happy again, and I too feel that I won't love again as I still love him and can't look at anyone else. Rand0m is right though, love happens when you least expect it and you just don't know what the future holds. You will meet someone else one day when you are ready, you just have to ride the pain out for now. You will get there, as will I

[jlr]

You're not alone, man. My GF of 5 years did the same thing to me a year and a half ago. I still think about it constantly.

 

It sucks.

 

I can only hope that with time it gets better for us.

[spriggig]

Four years, eight months ago you were on top of the world.

 

It happened before, it will happen again.

 

Exercise, read about relationships and prepare to be amazed.