jane2010 Posted March 9, 2010 Posted March 9, 2010 Ok, well im in a very complicated decision!!! ... 3 years ago, i was going through a very difficult time at home, my mum was suffering from very bad depression and turned to alcohol, it had been going on ever since i was 13 but increased dramatically, so when i was 18 to get away from it all i went to work in spain with a friend. there i met my now boyfriend, he is from italy and a month after meeting him he proposed to me, and painted a very nice life in my head, going to italy, not needing to go home and face my problems there. so 4 months later we went to italy. I spent all my days in his parents house, not being able to communicate with anyone, nothing around me, no transport, buses ect. so from the moment i woke up in the morning untill 8 at night i was in a room alone, or in the garden alone. but i stayed as i still couldnt face going home. anyway i spent two years in italy, and a year ago i came back home to the uk with my boyfriend. then i fell pregnant, my mum is feeling lots better. and we have a beautiful little flat together, have friends, ect. have everything! but my boyfriend constantly moans about missing italy, and misses his mum ect, and screams and shouts if i say i want to stay living at home here. he always says i know how it feels, but our situations are completely different. i went to italy being 18, cant drive, and no public transport, i couldnt talk or understand a thing of italian, therefore couldnt get a job, he took me out 1 time in 2 years to some bars ect, living with his mum. he is here, 32, can talk v good english, drives, works, has italian friends here, we go out socialy, we have a nice flat and a beautiful 6 month old baby. for me he really shouldnt compare as i really feel they are completely different situations, am i wrong!!?? he cares for me completely financially ect, and i know he is always here for me and does love me, but i just feel i have always needed him, thats why i have stayed with him so long, i always thought if i didnt have him i would have nothing and it really scared me. .. but now i have my beautiful boy, a nice little flat, 2 beautiful neices, my sisters near me who are my best friends, my mum and my friends, and my boyfriend who moans constantly at me, argues with me, and complains about everything!!!! .. im just tiered of it, we split up for 3 months, 3 months ago, and i was completely fine... actually a lot more relaxed, not worrying about him coming home and moaning at me bout everything! but he keeps asking me back, and i cant decide, purely as i feel sorry for him, and dont want to ruin my baby boys life by leaving his dad!! i also cant bare having sex with him, and when we do, i feel horrible after, ... i do really care for him, and he is a nice person, and my babys dad, he is really good to me in the caring sence.... but is this all enough? should i just carry on for my babys sake? or stop it now before my baby understands? please help, so confused!!!! sorry its so long!!!! xxxxxxxxxx
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