Nikki Sahagin Posted March 3, 2010 Posted March 3, 2010 (edited) I am REALLY missing attention. I've just brought loads of new clothes and got my hair done and i'm loving how I look...but automatically my mind goes to my ex and wanting HIM to see my new clothes and my hair. Therefore as much as I do these things for me and because I like to look good, I really miss his validation/attention/compliments. My mind goes straight back to him. I miss someone saying i'm beautiful, noticing the little things and its REALLY difficult going without that. I know that sounds vain but its something i'm struggling with and i'm not sure why. If I look great, I want HIM to see. I feel like the only weapon at my disposal to show him what he's missing is my looks. How shallow is that? I just have to vent it though because its really bothering me; its like OCD. Just wanting him to see how i'm looking. If I could have it so that I had him blocked him on facebook but he could see me I would just so he could always see what he's missing. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME? At the moment I have loads of studying to do so i'm cooped up indoors in front of a PC working and i'm always currently in therapy for panic attacks so I think this may just be a new worry i'm focusing on. On saturday all my friends are going out for a bday and he will be there. I said i'd attend and now i'm not sure its a good idea but every bit of me wants to go and show him what he's missing but I know thats the wrong reason because its basing everything on him and his opinion of me. AGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG I also want to add I feel theres something wrong with me because on saturday loads of people with exes will be there, but I just can't seem to do it. I want to be friends - but cant. I feel guilty that I CANT when it would make my life so much easier if I COULD. Edited March 3, 2010 by Nikki Sahagin
RobM Posted March 4, 2010 Posted March 4, 2010 I'm not sure I have any advice, just thought it was kinda ironic that you posted a thread about missing attention this morning and nobody commented on it all day. Try to focus on yourself and not him, take care of yourself and other guys will come along sometime. What are you studying?
Fouts Posted March 4, 2010 Posted March 4, 2010 Pretty normal thoughts Nikki, don't hate yourself for them. Unfortunately when we move on, we could care less about the looks and alot of times the new girl who caught our eye isn't even as nice looking. Strange huh? Go do something else that's fun for you on Saturday instead.
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