jjhart Posted March 3, 2010 Posted March 3, 2010 Its been 4 months. I havent contacted her, she hasnt contacted me, not going to rehash the old story, but she wouldnt/couldnt let me into her life, ended it after a year, and i still have hope. I look at my phone hoping she will call. I know that wont happen, but yet, i still hope. I think about what i would say to her, thins like that. I am doing the things i am supposed to do. We have mutual friends on FB, and occasionally i see her name pop up. I defriended her long ago. I have been working out, lost 25 lbs, and physically i feel great. But i am still thinking about her. I tell myself, that she doesnt give a damn about me, she has moved on, and was downright nasty to me the last time we talked. Thats what i try and think about when i find myself rehashing things. About a month after things ended, i considered taking a job with a paycut, just so i could get out of the area, to move on. I stopped myself and realized i cant run from things.... I am dating other women, and one i am dating, is nice, she is everything i want in someone, a good person, beautiful, and is doing something with her life. But we go out, and i have to stop my self from thinking of my ex. Its not fair to the woman i am dating, but i am trying to give her and i a chance. I dont know if this is a self confidence issue with me or what, i dont think it is. I did things wrong with my ex yes, but i was always on the outside of her life, no chance things would work out. Yet, I still hope she will knock on my door. I still hope she will call. Its like i can rationalize completely why her and i would be bad, if back together, and i can say things will not work out, even if she showed back up. But then i think about her sitting next to me, laughing with me, and my stomach drops. I cant reason her out of my mind. I miss her, I still have hope.
NoellePV Posted March 3, 2010 Posted March 3, 2010 I truly feel for you, but at least you are out meeting women and dating someone you have taken an interest in so far. I think that perhaps it might take even longer for you to stop thinking of her while out on a date, but give it a nudge out of your mind when it surfaces so you can fully enjoy this other woman you are dating now.
WIDESTI Posted March 4, 2010 Posted March 4, 2010 hey i feel you, i am in the EXACT same situation. i'm pretty confident things are done and i want to let go but i will always have that hope. i really felt like my ex of 2+ years was the one for me and that she meant the world. we have LOTS of mutual friends on FB cuz i brought her to everything that i did. I HATE the fact that she hangs out and talks to my friends who I introduced her to. Anyways, like you i am going out with different girls and dating a few; but i always feel like somethings missin at the end of the day. i always hope that my ex will come to her senses and realize what we had. stay strong and do everything you can.
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