stanlovesJ Posted March 3, 2010 Posted March 3, 2010 (scroll down to last para for question! ) Well im in high school right now (10th grade), but when i was in middle school i had a huge crush on this one girl. i would always tell her she was pretty flirt alot, and she gave me hugs when she had a boyfriend because i was sweet. IN high school i connected with her, and even though i never really knew what to say i would always walk with her in the halls and just smile at her, and i could nt keep a straight face! i loved my life. Then we started talking more. we got closer to each other. i gave her my virginity!*yes!* I was always feeling down because of stress family life was causing. I could not cope with my emotions, being down all the time,so drugs tried to balance my mood---That was the blockade between us. i would not use much , but when i came buzzed to school i was extremely turned on by this girl, and i embarressed her doing sexual stuff in the bathroom (and some people found out.) but she still liked me. Eventualy she had to go to a different school, i still saw her like every 2-3 weeks, but i was so burned out i could not connect with her! During winter break, i would stay up late everyday 4 hrs of sleep, then i smoked some cannabis on the 25th (. i got into a car wreck the 28th and when i got home I was scared, traumatized and starting messaging her, acting really desperate,but at the same time blaming her for my problems.Most of the letters were stuff like "i love you" , "your so sexy" "remember this and that", then later i would call her a slut, -"because my life is messed up , and you can help me" The weed made me lose my grip on reality and what i was saying. i feel so embarresed. HOW do i write her an apology letter for sending her messages about how I was desperate, blaming her for things, and how she only cares about sex.
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