BTLC23 Posted February 28, 2010 Posted February 28, 2010 If you wanna skip the long story, just think of acting really insecure, needy and not yourself like most of you have done when your partner broke up with you. But because you feel that you were in so in love, she hung on for so long and it got so bad, that you were threatening to kill yourself if she tried to break up with you just to see if she still cared. It was so embarassing and I don't want to be remembered that way I was pyshotic and was using a lot of drugs, most smoking weed an opiates. My ex gf broke up with me last july. We had been together for about 3.5 years. Lived together after the first year for about a year and a half I was 17 she was 21 when we met. Spent a lot of time together just us all the time. We had some great times, and some bad times, but were so attached to each other. She moved home to go to another school and because she could live at home free. She asked me to come with her but I said no. A few months later it was hard for me and I broke up with her, but talked to her all the time. I felt like we probably would of broke up earlier but me breaking up with her made her want me much more. I surprised her two months later, and we got back together went through that honeymoon stage again, she was great never bitched or complained. But after a few months it went back to normal, and I stopped having sex with her, then when I wanted to to she didn't want to then she broke up with me. She saw me in pics chilln with other girls, but this was after she tried to break up with me and I begged her to stay. When I went to kiss her she turned her cheek at me. After she saw the pics she said it wasnt a good idea we should talk on the phone then like 3 weeks like she said it was officially over. In November I find out she started dating someone else shortly after, it was possibly two months later. I don't know if she left me for this guy or he is a rebound but there still together. I try to talk to her and she never responds. I went up their and she called the cops on me. I really never bothered her like it may seem I went NC and then tried to contact her a few months later. She probably didnt want to bring up old feelings and moved on with her life. Thing is when she broke up with me she convinced herself by thinking about all the bad things in our relationship, like she was forcing herself too. I want her to remember me by the good times. I wanna get back together a little maybe in the future because I acted so ****ty I don't want her to remember me like that I became a druggie, insecure wussy. I used to be a strong confident mofo and am once again. Thing is she also kinda made me that way she emasculated me with her berating comments. She even said why do u think I was so mean to you. I think she was borderline, she even convinced me that I had mental issues and I went into therapy and am fine. Can anyone related and in time will she remember the good times. I feel that if I contact her it prob makes her mad even though it boosts her ego. So if I stop she won't have anything to be angry about and might reminsnce positively thats really all I want. I dont even care about send her pics and stuff that I loved because I know it looks weak but Im not trying to reconcile as much as I dont want her to forget about me and the good times and not focus on the bad. It hurts so bad. I know shes wrong blaming me for the whole thing, i think she did that to try and manipulate me knowing it would bother me because I am a compassionate and dont like to see others hurt because I can relate.
Author BTLC23 Posted March 7, 2010 Author Posted March 7, 2010 I know its a tough one but we have some experts here any ideas?
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