happylassy Posted February 27, 2010 Posted February 27, 2010 I am at one of those desperate places in a break up. I've moved back with my parents.. been here only 2 days - it's unbearable... it's in a different town 2 hours from my old place with my bf of 2 yrs. Things ended almost completely with my ex - enough for him to say he can't do it anymore... then he said he can''t do this right now... I packed knowing he probably can't give me what I want without making some big changes which I'm not sure he is prepapred to do. I really feel I want to go back home.... there's no room or privacy for me to greive here and nowhere else for me to go. My mom gets upset evrytime I get upset... I can't do this to her. I just want to mope... family are coming to visit this evening and I don't want to be here.. I don't know anyone here... the people are different... I've gone from out in the country to a poor town.... the country was such a healing place... here it's gray and concrete....I need to escape and I have no where! WHat can I do! I can't eat properly.. there is no room for me to have my own food (I am diabetic and have a special diet), clothes, belongings... I'm in a tiny bedroom... I feel it might be a mistake to go back home... but I am not sane in either place. I'm scared staying here I will make my mom unwell - she's had mental problems in the past and I can see this is hard on her and I am setting the vibe in the house with my sadness and I feel I just can't do it to people... I feel like I am going to just turn up at the old house... try to avoid my ex... but maybe I should stay away in case he comes back?? Wil I jepordise a reconciliation if I go back. He hasn't contacted me for nearly 10 days.. but I have contacted him over practical stuff twice which he has replied to... I feel like I am going to go crazy and call him... I've got nothing... barely any money for food..... help
jen_r Posted February 27, 2010 Posted February 27, 2010 I am at one of those desperate places in a break up. I've moved back with my parents.. been here only 2 days - it's unbearable... it's in a different town 2 hours from my old place with my bf of 2 yrs. Things ended almost completely with my ex - enough for him to say he can't do it anymore... then he said he can''t do this right now... I packed knowing he probably can't give me what I want without making some big changes which I'm not sure he is prepapred to do. I really feel I want to go back home.... there's no room or privacy for me to greive here and nowhere else for me to go. My mom gets upset evrytime I get upset... I can't do this to her. I just want to mope... family are coming to visit this evening and I don't want to be here.. I don't know anyone here... the people are different... I've gone from out in the country to a poor town.... the country was such a healing place... here it's gray and concrete....I need to escape and I have no where! WHat can I do! I can't eat properly.. there is no room for me to have my own food (I am diabetic and have a special diet), clothes, belongings... I'm in a tiny bedroom... I feel it might be a mistake to go back home... but I am not sane in either place. I'm scared staying here I will make my mom unwell - she's had mental problems in the past and I can see this is hard on her and I am setting the vibe in the house with my sadness and I feel I just can't do it to people... I feel like I am going to just turn up at the old house... try to avoid my ex... but maybe I should stay away in case he comes back?? Wil I jepordise a reconciliation if I go back. He hasn't contacted me for nearly 10 days.. but I have contacted him over practical stuff twice which he has replied to... I feel like I am going to go crazy and call him... I've got nothing... barely any money for food..... help I'm in the same boat. I just moved back to my parents after living with my bf for almost 2 years. It's torture being here. I can only cry and whatnot while they are at work and then I have to put on a happy face when they come home. I just want to be alone (actually I want to be with my ex) and cry all day long. :/
GrayClouds Posted February 27, 2010 Posted February 27, 2010 I am at one of those desperate places in a break up. I've moved back with my parents.. been here only 2 days - it's unbearable... it's in a different town 2 hours from my old place with my bf of 2 yrs. Things ended almost completely with my ex - enough for him to say he can't do it anymore... then he said he can''t do this right now... I packed knowing he probably can't give me what I want without making some big changes which I'm not sure he is prepapred to do. I really feel I want to go back home.... there's no room or privacy for me to greive here and nowhere else for me to go. My mom gets upset evrytime I get upset... I can't do this to her. I just want to mope... family are coming to visit this evening and I don't want to be here.. I don't know anyone here... the people are different... I've gone from out in the country to a poor town.... the country was such a healing place... here it's gray and concrete....I need to escape and I have no where! WHat can I do! I can't eat properly.. there is no room for me to have my own food (I am diabetic and have a special diet), clothes, belongings... I'm in a tiny bedroom... I feel it might be a mistake to go back home... but I am not sane in either place. I'm scared staying here I will make my mom unwell - she's had mental problems in the past and I can see this is hard on her and I am setting the vibe in the house with my sadness and I feel I just can't do it to people... I feel like I am going to just turn up at the old house... try to avoid my ex... but maybe I should stay away in case he comes back?? Wil I jepordise a reconciliation if I go back. He hasn't contacted me for nearly 10 days.. but I have contacted him over practical stuff twice which he has replied to... I feel like I am going to go crazy and call him... I've got nothing... barely any money for food..... help It sound like a very difficult situation. Though gong back will just prolong the pain. Is there any friends you can lean on for a time? What other things are you doing to heal?
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