rand0m Posted February 27, 2010 Posted February 27, 2010 I go out, I have fun, I laugh, I smile, I drink, I party, I meet new people, I meet some cute girls, I get some numbers, I put her out of my head. Then I come home, expecting to see her smiling face, and am greeted with an empty apartment, our apartment. I lie down in a cold bed with her scent still on the sheets, no matter how many times I've washed them. And I know, that when I wake up in the morning, she's not going to be there.. I'll be alone.. thinking of her. I want my life back, but I know that it's not a possibility. I know I have to forge on and create a new life; a life full of happiness and a life where I can grow in a new direction. I'm tired now.. it's time for bed.
adamt Posted February 27, 2010 Posted February 27, 2010 how long have you been split up? i've been split up 8 months and the first few months felt like hell whenever i had some quiet time at home. so what i did was joined a gym. so now i go to the gym any evening i am staying in. it stops me sitting in nd thinking too deeply. all you can do is fill your time as much as possible. take up more hobbies and interests. i'm hooked on a gym now and feel so much better once i have pushed mysself in the gym. its never too late to join a gym, i'm 38 and lost 26lbs and the fittest i have been for a long time. it makes you feel a lot better. before we split up i would love a relaxing weekend doing nothing. now have to keep busy and cant just sit at home. still have down days though. you jus thave to fight through it and keep focused on the road of recovery i am still taking each day at a time. focusing on myself and doing stuff. and going on a few dates
skydiveaddict Posted February 27, 2010 Posted February 27, 2010 I'm in the same boat. Hang in there. You are not alone. certainly true
Author rand0m Posted February 27, 2010 Author Posted February 27, 2010 Together for 5, split up for just about 7 weeks. We're young (both 23), but we had everything going for us. I've taken up quite a few hobbies, and have been going to the gym a little more often then before (but I had already been going semi-regularly). I'm not worried about the future per se, I'm just in pain and trying to come to terms with what has happened. Ideally we'd remain friends, but it hurts too much to see her and think of her with another, so I've cut that off for a while. All I ever did was love that girl and support her through everything; clearly she didn't appreciate it in the end.
deux ex machina Posted February 27, 2010 Posted February 27, 2010 Wow. 23 and have been together since you were 18? No doubt about it, things are so different, and I suppose in many ways this is figuring it all out in a new way - you were both so young when you got together. You're doing the right things. Keep it up, and as it goes all will gradually get settled into the new version of normal. Don't let setbacks bring you down, or romanticize the ex overly much. You'll get there. Best of luck to you.
Author rand0m Posted February 28, 2010 Author Posted February 28, 2010 Yea, I agree: we are/were very young, which is a huge reason why our relationship came to this point. It's not like I'm hooked on some childhood fantasy of what love is. We're both mature (well, I'm not so sure about her anymore), I'm an accountant, she's at law school, I live in an apartment downtown that I paid for, and I live my life much like any other adult would. I know that everything will be okay. I'll find someone else, or we will find our way back to each other, but as much as I tell myself these things, my heart is still not whole, my soul still feels lonely. Another day down, another day moving towards acceptance and happiness once again. Thanks for listening/responding!
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