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In the US, you can't get psych meds without a prescription, so visiting a psychiatrist and being diagnosed is part of the deal! Not all of them are good, and certainly some of them are med-happy, but hopefully they'll at least be trained enough to recognize clinical depression rather than "the blues!"

 

Ya, it sucks when doctors get prescription happy.

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b/c of the breakup i started smoking a lot of weed. then i stopped altogether, perhaps its been 5 months since i smoked.

 

i also almost started doing other things but didnt.

 

the first month i lived off of miller lites and jameson and lost about 30lbs, from just not eating. but i drannk a lot, like 6 times aweek.

 

i was also put on cymbalta for the depression, the anxiety and the suicidal thoughts.

 

that lasted one night. it was really bad and i woke up in the night looking to get a knife..so i stopped that, although now i feel like i could do well with them.

 

now the worst affect of this whole thing is that i started smoking cigarettes. this was from a couple of things. first my breakup buddy and best friend is a 2 pack a day smoker. when we would go to the bars and i would be left alone at the bar i would follow him outside.

 

then i would start smoking for the buzz. it would slowly relenquish the anxiety, although the adverse affect is now u get anxiety if u dont have a cigarette.

 

ugh. so thatts where i am now. i only drink once a week. i dont smoke weed anymore. but im smoking 5 cigarettes a day and meeting single women doing it. which i guess is an ok thing. weird though, my roomates in college boht were pack a day smokers, and i always abstained.

 

when they saw me over christmas break smoking they were in disbelief.

 

anyway...thats my story of self medicating. also got some xanax they i take every now and then when i need to sleep. but no more then once a week if that.

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Health,

 

I'm right there with you, wishing I could reach for those magic pills and get better. We all go through this life together, and want that kind of quick, cheap and easy lift when it gets hard.

 

Personally, I'm at the dregs, trying to clean up my mess. Getting over an eating disorder is not easy by any means, and I'm exhausted. Frequently they tell me to take antidepressants to help me through, and many times I want to say '**** it all' and re-enter into a life of self-destruction....

 

but I have to keep going. Life is ahead of me, and that makes me smile.

 

I love life, and I want to do everything I can to live it well. I want to earn my life, every day. I want to earn my health and well-being and find happiness in everything I do. And I want to give. I want to be well enough, so I can give, so that I can love. It is this thought that is my hope, strength and comfort.

 

 

We can do it, Health. It's hard, but dammit, we're strong.

 

 

Best wishes. Let's get addicted to what's really good for us. Eat well, exercise, get fresh air, laugh and love. :)

 

 

Sincerely,

Ms. Joolie

 

Yes. I do agree on positive addictions, books, films, exercise etc. We'll make it.

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Sadly I think many aren't. I've known quite a few people who were prescribed them for just regular old sadness. I'm not saying their sadness wasn't real or devastating, I just don't think taking meds for it when it's not "true" depression is the way to go.

 

As an example, ADD/ADHD has been over-diagnosed for years. A kid who's hyper and a kid with ADD are seen as the same some times, the guy who originally came up with ADD said it himself that it's not diagnosed properly.

 

It's crazy when we look for relief in pills.

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I hope everybody reads this entire thread.

Nothing will make you feel better than being healthy: eating right, exercising, reading a book, taking up a new hobby, running, hiking, playing sports.

I've seen it go both ways. Some "friends" (aquaintances might be a better word) turned to drugs and alcohol.. and fell badly; I no longer have contact with them, and for all I know, some of them may have passed.

Others get set on a great path, go back to school, live better lifestyles, become better individuals.

Guess which ones had more contact from their exes?

Guess which ones had more contact with new and amazing potential partners?

 

I love the way you put this whole paragraph! I'm going to copy it and save it!

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I know you already have a lot of responses but I think I can share some valuable things.

 

I've always been one to occasionally party with drugs, but never picked up anything resembling a habit. When my ex broke up with me, I decided to "self medicate". And I did it with harder drugs than coke, which you seemed to be considering. I consciously decided to stay high all the time, and it honestly worked for a while. I was numb, and that was a lot better than feeling pain.

 

Obviously everyone's aware of the threat of addiction. It's a big one. But I think that the real problem with self-medicating is that it stops you from doing the work you need to do in order to move on and rebuild yourself. After a month of daily use, I had to kick the habit, deal with physical and mental withdrawal, and then actually put in the work to move on. It's your life and your call, but I guarantee self medicating with drugs will only make the process harder and longer, and thats assuming you dont pick up an addiction.

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I know you already have a lot of responses but I think I can share some valuable things.

 

I've always been one to occasionally party with drugs, but never picked up anything resembling a habit. When my ex broke up with me, I decided to "self medicate". And I did it with harder drugs than coke, which you seemed to be considering. I consciously decided to stay high all the time, and it honestly worked for a while. I was numb, and that was a lot better than feeling pain.

 

Obviously everyone's aware of the threat of addiction. It's a big one. But I think that the real problem with self-medicating is that it stops you from doing the work you need to do in order to move on and rebuild yourself. After a month of daily use, I had to kick the habit, deal with physical and mental withdrawal, and then actually put in the work to move on. It's your life and your call, but I guarantee self medicating with drugs will only make the process harder and longer, and thats assuming you dont pick up an addiction.

 

Now I'm so tempted to drink a lot tonight! lol

I won't though. I see what you're saying but don't want to prolong this more than it is. I exercised this morn and felt great all day!

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Dude, I can only sum up your thread with one simple motto, which is practically the motto of my dating life:

 

MARY JANE, YOU THE ONLY GIRL WHO AIN'T NEVER BROKE MY HEART !

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I read your post and felt like I had to reply. Honestly, the answer is absolutely not. It may seem like an immediate solution but trust me, it is not worth it.

 

I am a Marine with an injury from the military for which I can get through the Veterans Hospitals pretty much any narcotic I want. Over the last 3 months of my relationship with my ex, as things were getting worse and worse, I turned to pain pills to help me mentally. Frankly, when I was on them, I didn't care that things were failing. I was taking 90 mgs of Morphine and 40 mg of percocet a day. It helped with my physical pain, but it also blocked out my mental pain.

 

When things ended with my ex in August of last year, I was devastated. I had been with her for 6 years and she was my life. I upped the doses of my pain meds and again it helped...until I realized I was addicted to them. As a dose of the morphine would start to wear off, I went through the most intense depression I could ever imagine. Literally, I wanted to die so bad I had to constantly remind myself how selfish it would be. Then I took the next dose and I was fine again for a while.

 

Eventually I couldn't take the ups and downs of the drugs anymore and stopped cold turkey, which was the absolute worst experience of my life. It ended up with my mother basically having to save my life and driving me to a military hospital at 4am while I was hallucinating about my ex.

 

Holy ****, that happened in October and I am starting to tear up and shake a little bit just thinking about it.

 

Bottom line is this, the reality of the break up will still be there after the drugs wear off. It almost cost me my life... not worth the risk.

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Dude, I can only sum up your thread with one simple motto, which is practically the motto of my dating life:

 

MARY JANE, YOU THE ONLY GIRL WHO AIN'T NEVER BROKE MY HEART !

 

I know. I stopped smokign weed cause sometimes it's cool, but alot of times it's freak outs on the bus home.

 

Then I get jealous how people can smoke so much. Also I worry about if my ex is gonna get into drugs now - we were both clean but her new man is a weedhead alchoholic...she always hated that...she made him stop when I talked to her near our break up...then she's okay with it now - which is her lowering her standards. Honestly I shouldn't care what she does - and if she gets into hard drugs - that's definately going on adecline not improving.

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I read your post and felt like I had to reply. Honestly, the answer is absolutely not. It may seem like an immediate solution but trust me, it is not worth it.

 

I am a Marine with an injury from the military for which I can get through the Veterans Hospitals pretty much any narcotic I want. Over the last 3 months of my relationship with my ex, as things were getting worse and worse, I turned to pain pills to help me mentally. Frankly, when I was on them, I didn't care that things were failing. I was taking 90 mgs of Morphine and 40 mg of percocet a day. It helped with my physical pain, but it also blocked out my mental pain.

 

When things ended with my ex in August of last year, I was devastated. I had been with her for 6 years and she was my life. I upped the doses of my pain meds and again it helped...until I realized I was addicted to them. As a dose of the morphine would start to wear off, I went through the most intense depression I could ever imagine. Literally, I wanted to die so bad I had to constantly remind myself how selfish it would be. Then I took the next dose and I was fine again for a while.

 

Eventually I couldn't take the ups and downs of the drugs anymore and stopped cold turkey, which was the absolute worst experience of my life. It ended up with my mother basically having to save my life and driving me to a military hospital at 4am while I was hallucinating about my ex.

 

Holy ****, that happened in October and I am starting to tear up and shake a little bit just thinking about it.

 

Bottom line is this, the reality of the break up will still be there after the drugs wear off. It almost cost me my life... not worth the risk.

 

Wow. You're right. I will stay off. I heard alot about pain pills. They are the best, but the worst. Their opiates....good you got off them..stay off them...I know their addictive...I can only imagine how hard it was after a break up.

This can be a wake up call to take better care and love yourself first. Hey I went out tonght, danced and had two glasses of cranbery juice at the bar - no smoke no alcohol so kudos to me.

 

I agree...drugs just mask feelings. All my friends were drunk today...I write out my emotions.

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