zacharoni16 Posted February 24, 2010 Posted February 24, 2010 Some of you know my story, long story short, my gf of 2 years got confused and her feelings for me changed and she dumped me basically (I still believe she went crazy and the Prozac she got on 3 weeks before this happened contributed to it) haha. I can't say anything about antidepressants, my friend gave me some, and I had a lot of alcohol in me, and I text my ex two days after we break up. I basically found out she was with another guy already, but I basically started calling her a "big slut bi*ch" and all that kind of nasty stuff that I regret. So I flushed the pills down the toilet, and I apologized hours after this happened, even wrote a hand written letter that I put on her car. I feel like such a d*ick, I never yelled at her or called her any names or nasty things within the relationship. I treated her like my queen, bent over backwards for her, but that's why I think it was the Prozac, because even the anti-depressants I took made me lose control of my emotions after it started wearing off. After that happened... I went into the 5 days of NC after apologizing sincerely, and today I just texted her "I Hope your day is going well" Do you think my calling her all that nasty things in text messaging, and me sending that one text today gonna ruin my chances with her forever? I'm not really looking to get back together with her, if she does that's great, but I just dont want her mad at me!!!! Our breakup was on pretty good terms, until I f*cked it up with that text-storm of "You*re a sl*t"... I don't want her to be mad at me, I just need to be forgiven, that hurts me more than the break up with her being pissed at me, and not forgiving me
The Paper Knight Posted February 24, 2010 Posted February 24, 2010 (edited) I can't say anything about antidepressants, my friend gave me some, and I had a lot of alcohol in me, and I text my ex two days after we break up. I basically found out she was with another guy already, but I basically started calling her a "big slut bi*ch" and all that kind of nasty stuff that I regret. thats good So I flushed the pills down the toilet thats good too and I apologized hours after this happened, even wrote a hand written letter that I put on her car. thats bad I feel like such a d*ick, I never yelled at her or called her any names or nasty things within the relationship. I treated her like my queen, bent over backwards for her, but that's why I think it was the Prozac, because even the anti-depressants I took made me lose control of my emotions after it started wearing off. don't feel like a dick, a cheating whore will do wonders for your emotions After that happened... I went into the 5 days of NC after apologizing sincerely, and today I just texted her "I Hope your day is going well" Do you think my calling her all that nasty things in text messaging, and me sending that one text today gonna ruin my chances with her forever? You don't want this whore back, start saying that to yourself every minute of the day. Throw out all her crap and delete all evidence of her, as from this day forward she doesn't exist anymore. I'm not really looking to get back together with her, if she does that's great, but I just dont want her mad at me!!!! who cares if she is mad, it is over, done, finished Our breakup was on pretty good terms, until I f*cked it up with that text-storm of "You*re a sl*t"... I don't want her to be mad at me, I just need to be forgiven, that hurts me more than the break up with her being pissed at me, and not forgiving me I bet $20 she was with or planning to be with this new guy BEFORE the break-up, everything nasty you said to her was right on. Go NC and start your recovery ASAP, these breakups leave big wounds and this will take some time. Good luck Edited February 24, 2010 by The Paper Knight
Ilovecake Posted February 24, 2010 Posted February 24, 2010 Don't blame this on Prozac because that wasn't it. Prozac doesn't work that way. It takes two to three weeks for it to even start working. Side effects: Insomnia, weakness, and loss of appetite are among the most common side effects reported with Prozac. Some of the side effects that are rare (seen in less than 1 percent of patients) include canker sores, high cholesterol, and acne.
sunrae Posted February 24, 2010 Posted February 24, 2010 Sadly, she is seeing someone else and I would suggest you move on and do the same. You appologized for your actions and now the ball is in her court. Weather she chooses to forgive you is up to her now. Just leave her alone at this time, dont push for her to fogive you or you will push her away. She has to forgive you in her time. Take care.
Author zacharoni16 Posted February 25, 2010 Author Posted February 25, 2010 All day today I have been depressed since I woke up, I keep thinking of the girl I love, spending time with her rebound. They are probably having sex, and what if she falls in love with him? The thing that makes me pissed off is she said she didn't want a relationship with anyone, but 10 minutes later she said she is going to date Dylan. Ugh, I'm trying to not think of this, how do you push these thoughts out of your head? What if she falls in love and completely forgets about me?
LostInLimbo Posted February 25, 2010 Posted February 25, 2010 What if she falls in love and completely forgets about me? If that happens, then you should be happy for her, not being happy is selfish and won't help you, you need to stay NC, SHE LEFT YOU, just remember that, which means she had no concerns for you feelings, so why worry about her. Now back to the statement that I quoted in your message, so what if she is happy and completely forgets about, you can only be so lucky, but here it is "Don't Expect that" its your worst fear, and thats what happens when your mind wanders... Best of luck Zach, you will be fine, I have been there, several times with one person, I don't wish that on anyone, because it wasn't easier each time she left, just a shorter time for the depression stage.... LiL
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