I can't get over the past and it's affecting my relationship with my fiance.

[Winky25]

When I first meet him. He got out of a 7 years relationship and he was engaged for 1 year. We were just friends in the beginning but i like him alot.

 

I introduce one of my friends to him (didn't introduce her to him on purpose) and he seems interested to get to know her. I got very jealous even though we were not dating back then because, I really like him. My friend didn't like him though. Four months after we hang out, we start dating exclusively and he was still talking to his ex fiance and he talks about it. I told him i didn't like him talking to her so he stop immeidately.

 

Now we are together for 1 years and 4 months. He proposed to me on our first year anniversary. He was so good to me and he mean the world to me. He cares about me alot and take cares of me like a lady. Even my friends said they can tell he loves me and care for me alot.

 

The problem is i still find it very hard to believe he was interested in my friend and he used to cares so much about his ex gf when we first start dating (but he hasn't talk to her for more than 1 year).

 

Everytime when i think about it I get really really angry and upset. Then we get into a huge argument. I know it's the past I should get over it but for some reason whenever I think about it I get super MAD. I yelled at him and I threathen to end the relationship. He told me he will love me no matter what but I have to stop doing this becuz, it's affecting him physically. He can't sleep well and have heavy breathing. I am 27 and he is 32....our wedding is going to be in May 28, 2011.

 

Deep inside me I am still very insecure. Part of it is because what he was interested in one of my friend & interested in other girls but we were not dating back then anyways. We were only hanging out but i was interested in him I think part of it is because my past boyfriends cheated on me before"

 

I want to find peace in my heart but wasn't sure how. I want to marry him because he is wonderful to me but can’t get over the past! This is driving me nuts...I am so scared that one day he will like another girl and leave me