Perhaps I'm healed?

[teanoranges]

I don't remember when it was but I cried awhile ago. I forced it. Absolutely forced it from the very pit of me. I made myself think of things I can't even remember... so strange, and I opened up myself to all honesty in me. I stopped being angry, I apologized for trash talking him on here and to one of my friends. He's not really a jerk, he's really wonderful... people just fall out of love, and honestly it wasn't my fault either.

It was a beautiful experience and things have been much much better. I barely think of him.. and when he pops up in my head its just his existence and not the memories and love we had. In fact, sometimes I forget that he was even a part of my life.

 

I'm doing really good and I'm not about to break NC, but I am thinking about the fact that sometime in the future I might... if I feel ready.

But I'm also okay if I don't. The more and more time that passes, the more and more I wonder if it would even mean anything to be friends.

 

I know it sounds like a contradiction posting it on here, but I wanted to share with LS because there are so many beautiful wonderful people here who are just trying to help other and help themselves.

Time does help. These are bittersweet moments.

 

Thanks to all for their help and I hope to stick around occasionally to return your love.

[skydiveaddict]

I'm really happy for ya. It must feel great to finally have some peace of mind/heart. I wish I could finally get rid of all that hurt too.

[USMCHokie]

This is great to hear teanoranges! I remember a few months back when you weren't quite so ok, and it's nice to see that things are looking up! It's good to hear that time really does heal our heart break.

 

Best of luck to you!

[Meaplus3]

Good for you tea. Keep moving forward and don't look back, it sounds like you are well on your way here. I wish you the very best.

 

Mea:)