pureinheart Posted February 14, 2010 Posted February 14, 2010 I'm having a bad/good day, real hypersensitive...I know having a bad/good day makes no sense at all, but it does to me....woke up depressed and actually went to sleep pissed, depressed, hypersensitive, although STILL have hope. Am trying to get busy, get my mind off of things....do some chores... I hate being alone another V-Day...but am enjoying my God TV and cleaning....just trying so hard to get through today and life right now. There has to be a happily everafter....lol... Hey I'm right there with you WF...am gonna make an admission....I was really hoping Pyro/Gaslighter/xDM would step up to the plate, but he never will and I have to understand that. This is his character and until he chooses to change it it will not change. I saw some change in him , although there is that "core" person...you know...it is just not meant to be and that's ok.
pgummins Posted February 14, 2010 Posted February 14, 2010 Its just another day my LS colleague... I was the other man, broke it off about 2 weeks ago and had to work in the same place as her today. No big deal I just kept my head down.
Devil Inside Posted February 14, 2010 Posted February 14, 2010 Let's just say my house is looking pretty clean as well.
Crazyforhim Posted February 14, 2010 Posted February 14, 2010 I broke down last night late and sent MM an email for Valentine's Day. When I got up this morning I had received one from him as well which he scheduled to be delivered before he ever saw mine. So I guess in some ways I'm in a bad/good place today too. I miss my MM terribly, but it's definitely better to be alone on Valentine's Day that to be in a relationship you don't want to be in (my xH) and that's where I've been the last couple of years. I cleaned the house yesterday so today I just went to church and later spent the day with my kids hanging out
Fallen Angel Posted February 15, 2010 Posted February 15, 2010 I had to work today. My MM was with me on Friday which is when he gave me my Valentine gift and card. He called me as soon as I got off work today to say Happy Valentine's Day and that he loves and misses me. He will be back tomorrow to stay with me. I had to be at work at 6 am today, so *shrug* when I got home I ate steak and eggs, took a nap, and now I am doing a load of laundry. I need to clean my room as it looks like my closet exploded, and I need to sleep cause i am still tired and have a dentisit appointment in the morning. UGH!
Author pureinheart Posted February 15, 2010 Author Posted February 15, 2010 Most of my anger has subsided, and now forgiveness must set in...funny, I have been through these processes so much that they are automatic now. Good days ahead as things could be much worse...whatever will be will be. It is about acceptance, isn't it....
D-Lish Posted February 15, 2010 Posted February 15, 2010 Hey I'm right there with you WF...am gonna make an admission....I was really hoping Pyro/Gaslighter/xDM would step up to the plate, but he never will and I have to understand that. This is his character and until he chooses to change it it will not change. Do you mean our "pyro" as in the poster "pyro" that is entwined with another poster?
Author pureinheart Posted February 15, 2010 Author Posted February 15, 2010 Do you mean our "pyro" as in the poster "pyro" that is entwined with another poster? LOL...no not our pyro...lol, guess I better change that. I was referring to my exDM of whom I have recently discovered his "gaslighting" techniques...associating "gaslighting" with "fire starting" led me to calling him "pyro" also. Want to give (((((((huggggssss)))))) to everyone at LS. Sorry pyro....
mybrowneyedgirl Posted February 15, 2010 Posted February 15, 2010 pure i love your term pyro. in fact i might start referring to my xmm as pyro. he lit that fire and loves to keep it burning.
Zarah Posted February 15, 2010 Posted February 15, 2010 My V-Day was uneventful.. I made the mistake of seeing "Dear John" with one of my friends and we both ended up crying through the whole movie. It was good though I received 3 dozen roses from my MM ( he sent them to my house)... I wont see him for another month so I've been feeling very lonely the past few weeks. This is my first Valentines day "alone" but it wasn't that bad - I'm crossing my fingers that next year we can spend it together.
Author pureinheart Posted February 15, 2010 Author Posted February 15, 2010 LOL MBEG...... Ya, mine got better as the day progressed...I watched my "God TV" and was extremely encouraged and had many questions answered concerning as to why we should step into another persons shoes and try to feel what they are feeling and thinking...ect.... I too watched two teary eyed movies that totally gave me hope and understanding....the one about Ruth and Boaz (in the Bible) and One Night With The King (Ester)....oh man, I need to just trust God and go about my business and heal from this stuff and totally forget about exDM...I was his transition girl.... After what exDM did to me, I would not want to be him....maybe someday he'll get his life right.
dannie19 Posted February 17, 2010 Posted February 17, 2010 Well,yes I've got some Valentine's Day issues with my married man, he wouldn't understand them but Loveshack might! He came to my house on the 13th and I'd got him a small prezzie and myself a nightie with little hearts on, which I was wearing for him and he smugly announced he hadn't got me anything and was wearing a shirt out of the laundry basket! He then said he'd to leave at 8 (& couldn't saty the night as usual), I imagine to be home for Valentine's and that the next day he was going to see his partner's favourite band. Things didn't go too well after that but apparently it is me who has 'f####d things up' not him. Aw, why do we bother!
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