HockeyMom Posted February 14, 2010 Posted February 14, 2010 Everything I do, I'm sad. I wish I were watching the olympics with him right now. But no, he, his kids, her, her kids all moved in together today.... 1st night at the new house. We also all work at the same place. I'm a mess and I finally took the time and energy earlier tonight to tell my whole story.... long and draining. Been in love with him for 13 yrs... we were split for 8 yrs in the middle of that time while he left me and married someone else. Then he realized he had made a mistake leaving me all those yrs ago. We were back together again for almost 3 yrs until the end Sept. when he left me again for a girl he works with. Oh.. so after I spent all that time typing my loooong story, and went to preview and post LS said I wasn't still signed in and I lost the whole thing. There was no way I could type it all again... I will though again, maybe tommorrow when I'm sitting here on my bed doing nothing but being an alone, lonely, crying mess.... I was hoping to spend the rest of my life with him...it's killing me to think about them having what he and I should have.
Sadbutrelieved Posted February 14, 2010 Posted February 14, 2010 I'm sorry you're feeling so bad Hockeymom. It won't be any consolation, but think of it this way: you are sad for what, in reality, probably would never have happened anyway. It sounds like he's all over the place and always looking for the next best thing, in his mind that is. You can rest assured that his new woman will be right where you are sooner or later. I too grieve for what I had hoped to have, but in reality all I had was a loser. Get your life back, shake him off like mud on your boots, and go on to be even happier without someone so unstable in your life. ((hugs))
MySweetie'sGone Posted February 14, 2010 Posted February 14, 2010 I'm so sorry Hockey Mom...he should be ashamed for doing that to you...twice! Perhaps after awhile the stresses of joining with her family so soon and moving in together will incite him to return to you again. If so, DON'T let this man back into your life. He has established a pattern where he looks for love outside of your relationship...he even married a woman...but she wasn't you. He doesn't deserve your love nor attention. Be strong. At work act like you aren't bothered at all. Cry when you get home if you have to. Maybe even see if you can get switched to a different department at work. Again, be strong.
PuggaGirl Posted February 15, 2010 Posted February 15, 2010 Hockey Mom, I can relate: I work for the same company as my H and his new girlfriend. I work in the same building with her; he works across town. Talk about awkward! They didn't move in together, but I know they are spending more time together and she's been at his place all weekend (I have to drive by his house to get to work - Can I get a break???) I can sympathize - I've been having the same lonely feeling all weekend. I have to agree with the other posts: he's not worth it. I know that's hard to hear right now, but you will make it and be better without him.. Hang in there. My thoughts are with you...
Author HockeyMom Posted February 15, 2010 Author Posted February 15, 2010 Thank you all for the support and well wishes! I guess I waited too long to come on here and open up a little. I've been keeping so much pain in because the few friends that care about how I'm feeling are getting sick of listening to it every day and they seem to think that I'm just supposed to be able to get over him and move on.... I just don't know how to do that when I loved him so much and allowed so much of my happiness to revolve around him. He was my best friend. I still feel like I don't have anything or anybody else in my life that will make me as happy as he did. I wish you all well also, Everyday is just so hard!!!!
Beeotch Posted February 15, 2010 Posted February 15, 2010 I'm sorry you're feeling so bad Hockeymom. It won't be any consolation, but think of it this way: you are sad for what, in reality, probably would never have happened anyway. It sounds like he's all over the place and always looking for the next best thing, in his mind that is. You can rest assured that his new woman will be right where you are sooner or later. I too grieve for what I had hoped to have, but in reality all I had was a loser. Get your life back, shake him off like mud on your boots, and go on to be even happier without someone so unstable in your life. ((hugs)) Couldn't have said it better...
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