bananaboat11 Posted February 12, 2010 Posted February 12, 2010 I knew from day 1.. she grew up with Lindsay Lohan and partied with the crazy celeb bitch. RED FLAG. Damn it Rob (me)... you knew Nicole was a ****ed up girl to begin with. What's wrong with you. I welcome you all to tell me what a ****ing idiot i am. Technically... I've hooked up with Lindsay Lohan since I was ****ing Nicole day in and day out... (she wanted the sex more than me.. and I'm not one to say no)... I'm glad my STD testing came up negative... WOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. That's all. I'd post pics, but give me some more time to 'heal'... I can't stomach looking at Nicole right now... I can say her name and think of the our ... well my relationship... her rebound without dying a little inside. Hell I can see her with her ex-boyfriend who cheated on her for 2 of the 4 years they were together and it doesn't bother me anymore... I just can't stomach looking at her right now. I've unblocked her facebook profile, but I WON'T look at it. I know it'll set me back. I refuse to hide from her. I did nothing wrong - she did. I will never break the NC... she won't either. Life goes on. We all get stronger. It gets easier. I love you all... and you are loved! Know that. HUGE thank you to USMCHokie, Erica, DenverBach, OhPenelopse, Lishy, et al... (and others)
Author bananaboat11 Posted February 12, 2010 Author Posted February 12, 2010 oh man u hooked up with Lohan? deetz! through that degrees of separation idea... nicole had hooked up with lindsay
EricaH329 Posted February 12, 2010 Posted February 12, 2010 I refuse to hide from her. You know where I stand on that statement. So I won't get into that. HUGE thank you to USMCHokie, Erica, DenverBach, OhPenelopse, Lishy, et al... (and others) You're welcome Rob!!
Author bananaboat11 Posted February 12, 2010 Author Posted February 12, 2010 You know where I stand on that statement. So I won't get into that. You're welcome Rob!! Erica! You're a good person... a caring person.... a beautiful individual... inside & out. I am lucky to have you in my life.
EricaH329 Posted February 12, 2010 Posted February 12, 2010 Erica! You're a good person... a caring person.... a beautiful individual... inside & out. I am lucky to have you in my life. Wow, thank you so much!! That's an incredible compliment! I really appreciate that!!! And you are a wonderful man yourself, Rob. Full of potential that should be given to only the best of women. It seems as though there is something that is holding you back from letting go of this. Is it your anger? Is it your sadness? Is it your love? I think you need to seriously re-evaluate why you are continuing to think about this situation to the extent that you are, and try to do something about it to change it. It'll take a lot of self reflection, but this is something that must be let go. Fully. And once that happens, not only will you be a much happier person with yourself, but you'll also exude a vibe that cannot be faked. You know i'm here to help you out in any way I can. You will get through this.
Author bananaboat11 Posted February 12, 2010 Author Posted February 12, 2010 Wow, thank you so much!! That's an incredible compliment! I really appreciate that!!! And you are a wonderful man yourself, Rob. Full of potential that should be given to only the best of women. It seems as though there is something that is holding you back from letting go of this. Is it your anger? Is it your sadness? Is it your love? I think you need to seriously re-evaluate why you are continuing to think about this situation to the extent that you are, and try to do something about it to change it. It'll take a lot of self reflection, but this is something that must be let go. Fully. And once that happens, not only will you be a much happier person with yourself, but you'll also exude a vibe that cannot be faked. You know i'm here to help you out in any way I can. You will get through this. I know for a fact (deep down in my heart) that I will never hear from her again and I'm totally fine with that. What's still bothering me is how even if at the time, it was all so real... she turned out to be so fake. I will never know if she truly hurts so much for her actions done against me that she'll distance herself from me as much as possible OR if she truly sees she's done no wrong and her pride and arrogance occlude her perception and understanding of what I was to her that she goes on living her life without feeling the slightest hint of sorrow... or remorse. sucks, but it bothers me still... I just want to know that I wasn't JUST her rebound... that she must've cared... and even still does to some small extent.
EricaH329 Posted February 12, 2010 Posted February 12, 2010 I know for a fact (deep down in my heart) that I will never hear from her again and I'm totally fine with that. What's still bothering me is how even if at the time, it was all so real... she turned out to be so fake. I will never know if she truly hurts so much for her actions done against me that she'll distance herself from me as much as possible OR if she truly sees she's done no wrong and her pride and arrogance occlude her perception and understanding of what I was to her that she goes on living her life without feeling the slightest hint of sorrow... or remorse. sucks, but it bothers me still... I just want to know that I wasn't JUST her rebound... that she must've cared... and even still does to some small extent. Rob, you know I love ya, but this is something you just need to let go. You may never know her real intentions, but if you go through your whole life wondering about it and waiting for an answer, you'll destroy any possible chance of another relationship. What I would do, is expect the worst. You were her rebound (she even said so), so I would take that knowledge and use it to help yourself become a better person. Stop waiting around for answers you'll never get. It's time consuming, and a waste of valuable effort (and sanity).
EricaH329 Posted February 12, 2010 Posted February 12, 2010 Ok so I was in the bath listening to my Ipod, which I haven't listened to since my bf and I broke up the last time. It was full of all the songs that I put on there because of the breakup. I started listening to this one song and I jumped up outta the bath because I just knew it was something I wanted you to listen to. This is exactly how you should be feeling right now!
sunrae Posted February 12, 2010 Posted February 12, 2010 Ericha, Thats a great song, thanks for sharing. I need to listen to that over and over again myself.
Thebob Posted February 12, 2010 Posted February 12, 2010 youtube songs= I'm not over- carolina liar show me what Im looking for- carolina liar last night- carolina liar better alone- carolina liar Give those a try
DenverBachelor Posted February 12, 2010 Posted February 12, 2010 Technically... I've hooked up with Lindsay Lohan since I was ****ing Nicole day in and day out... (she wanted the sex more than me.. and I'm not one to say no)... Where is TMZ when you need them?
GrayClouds Posted February 12, 2010 Posted February 12, 2010 Ok so I was in the bath listening to my Ipod, which I haven't listened to since my bf and I broke up the last time. It was full of all the songs that I put on there because of the breakup. I started listening to this one song and I jumped up outta the bath because I just knew it was something I wanted you to listen to. This is exactly how you should be feeling right now! The evil of autotune . It is a bit of a oxymoron to writea song to someone to say how your over them. It is like meeting up with your ex to tell them your going NC.
EricaH329 Posted February 12, 2010 Posted February 12, 2010 Ericha, Thats a great song, thanks for sharing. I need to listen to that over and over again myself. You're welcome! I've listened to that song thousands of times, never gets old! The evil of autotune . It is a bit of a oxymoron to writea song to someone to say how your over them. It is like meeting up with your ex to tell them your going NC. Very true! But nonetheless, it makes us feel better. So I don't question it
USMCHokie Posted February 12, 2010 Posted February 12, 2010 I will never break the NC... she won't either. Life goes on. We all get stronger. It gets easier. I love you all... and you are loved! Know that. HUGE thank you to USMCHokie, Erica, DenverBach, OhPenelopse, Lishy, et al... (and others) You know we're always here for you. You know I heart you and all (), but seriously...you're a lot better than this, and I'm getting a little tired of seeing the same posts like this from you over and over again. Yes, I know each day you're "realizing" something you think is "new", but honestly, it's nothing new...we all know Nicole is a crazy psycho bitch, and every time you mention her name, you're just further cementing her legend in your mind... Like Erica said, you need to get over this...so stop telling yourself and all of us over and over again that she'll never contact you again or that you were used as a rebound...you know...we know...there's no need to dwell on this...
Bulldozed Posted February 12, 2010 Posted February 12, 2010 youtube songs= I'm not over- carolina liar show me what Im looking for- carolina liar last night- carolina liar better alone- carolina liar This one take me out of the Anger stage and places me directly into the Pity I heel for the ex....sounds bass ackwards, but regrettably true.....
Bulldozed Posted February 12, 2010 Posted February 12, 2010 GREAT Song Erica! Thanks for sharing! My ex isn't alone, that's her problem...she can't be...in the end, she truly is alone in search of a perpetual "fluff" filled relationship.... (This is exactly how you should be feeling right now) _ DITTO!
EricaH329 Posted February 12, 2010 Posted February 12, 2010 GREAT Song Erica! Thanks for sharing! My ex isn't alone, that's her problem...she can't be...in the end, she truly is alone in search of a perpetual "fluff" filled relationship.... (This is exactly how you should be feeling right now) _ DITTO! There's this one line in the remix with Ne-Yo that goes, "I lost something that's dime a dozen, she lost something that's one of a kind." I think if we all had that mentality, we would heal much quicker.
Bulldozed Posted February 12, 2010 Posted February 12, 2010 You are absolutely right Erica! I'll remind myself of that line daily! Because it's true! Same for you... I run a virtual business from home and it's hard being couped up all day....one's mind tends to wander incessantly. I suspect being slammed with all the snow is similar...eh? Enjoy your weekend. BTW - I rented Zombieland with Woody Harrelson...once you get past the gore (if you're squeemish), it's a hysterical movie...cameo by Bill Murray is classic... enjoy your weekend!
EricaH329 Posted February 12, 2010 Posted February 12, 2010 You are absolutely right Erica! I'll remind myself of that line daily! Because it's true! Same for you... I run a virtual business from home and it's hard being couped up all day....one's mind tends to wander incessantly. I suspect being slammed with all the snow is similar...eh? Enjoy your weekend. BTW - I rented Zombieland with Woody Harrelson...once you get past the gore (if you're squeemish), it's a hysterical movie...cameo by Bill Murray is classic... enjoy your weekend! Oh my goodness! I can't imagine having to stay home all the time, I thought being home for a week was bad enough! It's as though your mind finds things to constantly think about if it's not being stimulated. Geeeezz!! I feel for you! I heard that Zombieland was good, i'll have to check it out sometime! I hope you have a wonderful weekend as well! Try to get out a little bit if you can. I know I will!
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