EliasH Posted February 5, 2010 Posted February 5, 2010 Where to begin... Well I am a freshman in college and also a member of a fraternity. I love everyday of it and have yet to have a bad experience from it. Only problem I see is that it feels like such an empty lifestyle. Throughout high school I had a steady girlfriend for over a year, she was amazing; of course we had our problems like everyone else but to me it was perfect. But one day i woke up and new i had to end it because i didnt think we would survive our transition into college and my transition into the fraternity (even though i did not plan on joining one at that time). So i ended it and it went horribly there was crying and yelling, and in the end we still dont speak to eachother almost a year later. I after that dated another girl on the rebound who was probably one of the meanest people I have ever met, she treated me like **** and finally it ended and I was happy. But when that happened i figured that would be the best time to let loose and do all that i never could do when i had a girlfriend. So I did, I partied daily i hooked up with whatever girl i thought was hot; this continued for months. But after a while I felt like it was not what I wanted that I wanted to feel an emotion behind it all that I was cared for like I used to be. I wanted to feel that love again; so i met a girl who was in a sorority at my school, sparks flew from the moment we met. Of course by my mistake even though we met outside of a party we ended up hooking up. Since we both were full time students we wanted to take it slow and get to know eachother before becoming anything more than "friends". So continually from then on we hooked up and hung out a good amount of the time. But we were both very busy since we were not only full students but also active Greeks. So from that we only hung out rarely in the day instead she would come stay at my house at night alot. It was nice i finally was feeling like a was able to get close to someone, but of course life got in the way. Our schedules were so hectic there was no time in her opinion for anything more. I knew we both liked eachother but it seemed it wasnt the right time. Shortly after we stopped talking, to this day i still feel off about it. Its been about 3 months since then and i went back to my old habits of just hooking up with anyone i think is good looking. But once again I feel like everything i do is so empty. I wake up in the morning not excited for anything but just in a constant daze where im going through the motions of each day. And its gotten to the point where I dont really remember what its like to be any other way. Ive met alot of different girls who were interested in being something more than just a one night stand but after we hook up i just for some reason am over it. Idk what other way to look at it or what else to do to make myself happier. Idk if this is a question or more of a way just to vent. We will see how it works out
espec10001 Posted February 5, 2010 Posted February 5, 2010 Women will never make you happy man. It's a life-long learning process. Women appear out of thin air and they also disappear in like manner. Not to say that they don't have lovely qualities; their beauty, grace, and charm are all wonderful things, but you won't find fulfillment in them. As a man, fulfillment has to come from within.
TaraMaiden Posted February 5, 2010 Posted February 5, 2010 Correction (if I may be so bold): As a PERSON - fulfilment has to come from within.
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