Do the setbacks ever stop for good?

[icyness]

Hey guys.

I've not posted in months, I can't be sure, but I think it was probably September or so when I was last on here.

Long story short, my boyfriend (now ex) left me last July claiming he needed space etc. I later found out it was indeed someone else.

 

Like most dumpees, I was a walking zombie for the first few months thinking I'd never see the day where I stop crying and feeling like I was simply dying from the inside out..but I did eventually.

It was about mid October that I had that moment where the world felt nice again. I didn't wake up thinking about him or hurting, I didn't check up on him online, I wasn't wondering if I'd ever hear from him again...I was actually moving on and feeling like the old me I once knew.

 

I did actually get a few missed calls from him between the months of October and January. I never did find out why he called as he left no voice mails any of the times.

I don't know exactly when or why, But somewhere between the beginning of December and the last time he called, I slowly began to go down hill again.

The past month, I feel as if I've just taken a nosedive.

I can't stop thinknig about him, I feel myself starting to slip back into a depression over everything that occurred, and I feel as if I'm in a vicious never ending cycle that I'll never get out of entirely.

 

For someone you really truly believed to be the one, does it ever go away completely?

Some days I genuinely feel good about life where as others I feel myself going over everything in my mind again and again, getting extremely angry and emotionally drained.

 

As cliche as it sounds, I truly do wish at times he was never in my life. I'm so tired of quietly battling what seems to be a relationship demon inside every day.

 

This was a vent more than anything else; I'm sure a lot of you (unfortunately) can relate. Thanks for reading. xo

[0hpenelope]

Hey guys.

I've not posted in months, I can't be sure, but I think it was probably September or so when I was last on here.

Long story short, my boyfriend (now ex) left me last July claiming he needed space etc. I later found out it was indeed someone else.

 

Like most dumpees, I was a walking zombie for the first few months thinking I'd never see the day where I stop crying and feeling like I was simply dying from the inside out..but I did eventually.

It was about mid October that I had that moment where the world felt nice again. I didn't wake up thinking about him or hurting, I didn't check up on him online, I wasn't wondering if I'd ever hear from him again...I was actually moving on and feeling like the old me I once knew.

 

I did actually get a few missed calls from him between the months of October and January. I never did find out why he called as he left no voice mails any of the times.

I don't know exactly when or why, But somewhere between the beginning of December and the last time he called, I slowly began to go down hill again.

The past month, I feel as if I've just taken a nosedive.

I can't stop thinknig about him, I feel myself starting to slip back into a depression over everything that occurred, and I feel as if I'm in a vicious never ending cycle that I'll never get out of entirely.

 

For someone you really truly believed to be the one, does it ever go away completely?

Some days I genuinely feel good about life where as others I feel myself going over everything in my mind again and again, getting extremely angry and emotionally drained.

 

As cliche as it sounds, I truly do wish at times he was never in my life. I'm so tired of quietly battling what seems to be a relationship demon inside every day.

 

This was a vent more than anything else; I'm sure a lot of you (unfortunately) can relate. Thanks for reading. xo

 

Reading this reminded me of where I was 2 years ago. It's a very horrible state to be in. If I had worst enemies, I wouldn't even wish this on them.

 

Yes, it does get better. Hang in there!