wth!read this if u know my story, if not just look at my threads! :(

[kristinabopp]

daaaaaaaamn! i feel soooooO freaking depressed! if u all know, the other night February 1, my ex added me on his new yahoo messenger and we chat for a lil bit but kept the convo short. he just made me listen to this song called *youll be in my heart by phill collins* he told me thats how he feel.. and he asked me if i have found a dude already and i said no coz i want to go to school first and graduate.. and he said *SAME HERE*.. wth is going on!!i dont get it!

the last time he called before he added me on his new yahoo messenger, i told him to only communicate with me if he wants to go back.! and now out of nowhere he like added me randomly on his new yahoo messenger and made me listen and pay attention to the lyrics of the song! :(

 

And today he went online and DIDNT even message me!. i dont know what to think of everything, i dont know what is going on!. since the time he broke up w/ me ive been depressed everyday, and cant stop crying until now.. but seriously, i dont know what to think.. i know for sure he wont talk to me again.. its like he always pop out when im not expecting it. before he called me out of the blue and i was surprised! and then the other night *feb.1 at 4am!* i was watching a movie and then this thing pop out of nowhere and trying to add me and then i saw his name! and i was like, HES STILL AWAKE?! i was surprised but im so nervous because i dont know why he is doing all this!. :( but now he didnt message me even once when he went online today.. im just saying.. but really, it hurts so much!i love him more than anything. and i just wish that hell come back *which is NEVER gonna happen. * i find that really hard to believe that he will come back to me.. i have a little hope in my heart/mind but when i think about everything that happened, i find it hard that he will come back..

 

*sigh* i just wanna die right now and not suffer all this problems im going through.. i seriously want to just runaway in a place where no one knows me and forget all the problems i have right now..

[McGrupp]

u know what to do stop talking to him, play it tough act like your with a BUNCH OF DUDES and DONT ****ING LISTEN TO PHIL COLLINS.

 

goddamn phil collins. horrible lyricist, decent drummer...

[kristinabopp]

hahahhahaha. lol funny!!! i can tell that u hate phill collins.

[McGrupp]

yeah im just messing around, but seriously this dude is going to play some lame song and make you listen to it, and feel like **** and then go back online and not speak to you and play it cool.

 

NO!!

 

listen when did he come back last time? when you played NC right? im not here to make your decision but like...go NC again and your super cute, go find a new guy, dont get physical if u dont want to , but at least go and have some fun.

[kristinabopp]

i knoow. its mind games! and i hate it mind games!

 

yea, we were on NC for almost 1month. and hes the only first one who communicates with me.. hes the only one who's up for the decision of him coming back to me or not. and im just here waiting and making myself busy as much as i can. i dont want to be in a relationship for now because i have to plan my moving out first and going to school.

but anyways, thanks mcGrupp!