SmitLi85 Posted February 3, 2010 Posted February 3, 2010 Hello everyone, I just need to vent so here's my story. Two years ago during my second semester of freshman year, I met this guy. We immediately became very close. Our first phone conversation was about two hours and it went beyond that hobbies & favorites we talked about our turmoiled upbringing, religion, everything! I wasn't even thinking about a relationship, we just loved being around eachother. Perfect! A few months later he wanted to make it official, he told me everything a girl wanted to hear. He could only see himself with me, he's never met a girl like me before, blah blah. I admit I was a new challenge for him, no prior relationships and still maintained my v-card lol. But for some reason I never sat down and analyzed how I felt about him, so I said no to the relationship thing. The following school year, we got back and I visited him. I admit I was glad to see him but I'm not the most expressive person, so I understand how he felt that I didn't care about him and hadn't expressed my emotions. We argued for a few months and then around November, that's when the big blow came. Like before we we're just hanging and then we got into an argument (he always seemed to get mad no matter what I did) and he said it was over. "Maybe you need to try and date some more and get experience and then we could work it out", yeah right, if you TRULY LOVE someone you'd never want that in my opinion. I was CRUSHED, immediately I went into denial and begging and pleading mode, pathetic I know. Less than a week later, I see on FB this girl saying " I love TDS*name change) and I'm like what? I'm like how in the world are you in a relationship less than a week after dumping someone? Fast forward to May and now he's living with the girl, (still friends) and is still texting/calling/visiting every now and then. I'm thinking to myself how can you be in a "relationship" yet you're still looking outside of it and especially with me, trying to string me along. After more "reconciliation" and fighting it's now Fall 2009 (yes, I'm still clinging to this loser) and he invites me over for Sweetest Day, while she's at a party (I later find out), gets mad at me again for no apparent reason and tells me to leave. WTF? Why can't I shake this @$$-hole? A few months ago I deleted him as a FB friend and then I get a notice to readd him,lol! So, I did, but of course I did some major snooping so I decided in order to move on SERIOUSLY I have to go no contact and take it day by day. Now, he has no job, car, motivation, he obviously can't be in a serious and faithful relationship...he has absolutely NOTHING to offer. I ran into them today and he didn't speak. Then I stopped at the store kiosk and then I go to turn around and there they are again (they prob think I'm following them) but they were walking incredibly slow, so she goes one direction and he's going the same direction I'm going so then he speaks. This highly upsets me! I know I want/deserve better, but some days I he/them are all I can think about, today was a setback. I mean honestly like I said he can't do anything for me but we did have more than just lust, we had a deep, connection friendship but it's over. I started no contact, changed numbers, and everything last week. I'm just trying to take it day at a time to heal my wounds, but I do want someone to be there for me, a real relationship. I know once I get myself together everything will be fine!
Pentel Posted February 3, 2010 Posted February 3, 2010 welcome, i know its hard sweetie, we've all been there, when i broke up, i was really sad, i even went for counseling, and now, im really happy, i see that i wasn't happy the way i lived, now i got more things to do, it might be harder than you thought, but believe me, its really worth it, you are now opening a door to a more fulfilling life, to a more fun life, to a better person, we both now you deserve someone a whole lot better, stay strong
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