Ugh

[Morgued]

Ya know i've been looking at some posts, I see everyone's heartache and problems... and for some reason it's kinda having a reverse effect on me. I don't know in a way it's just making me feel more lonesome. Lately i've been having a problem with 'checking up' on my ex, and I'm starting to get the urge to do that again. I don't know if it's just to see how she's doing or see her face again or what.

 

This only consists of looking her up on her Myspace. I know she's not thinking about me, nor has she since Oct which was when she tried to contact me the last time.

 

Usually if I felt this way i'd just get off the computer, or go to sleep, but I can't get my mind to rest long enough for me to go to sleep at the moment. I don't want to go back to doing that....I know it's unhealthy, and I know she's already moved on. Just not sure what to do right now.

[angelaM]

I know exactly what you mean. Sometimes I just can't shut off my brain, and it seems worse at night, when I can't get out and exercise. Or I'll lie in bed and toss and turn, it's horrible. Sometimes I'll get up and lie on the couch with the TV on, until I get sleepy enough, or just fall asleep right there. I just keep telling myself that it will pass, there will be better days. But sometimes the nights seem so long.

[counterman]

I feel for you because it is hard, no doubt. It is also normal they way you are feeling. Every time you feel the urge to check up on you ex, just force yourself off your computer. Don't sleep but rather watch tv, play a game, exercise or whatever that has anything to do with your computer. Force yourself to do this and take it slowly. You can't expect to go cold turkey straight away and never check up on your ex again. Just keep trying to beat the longest time you've stopped checking up on your ex and before you know it you'll forget how long it has been and just stop completely. Time heals all.