rec2 Posted January 30, 2010 Posted January 30, 2010 It's been four months to the day since my girlfriend of nearly 4 years and I split up. I have been having a really bad day emotionally and I couldn't figure out why. I've been doing fairly well for the last week or so. Then I realized the date. I don't know if that's really why but it makes sense. It could be that she texted me something meaningless on Monday and let herself into our place twice this week while I was at work. We used to live together and she still has keys. It could be that one of our mutual friends has called me the last 2 days. I thought I was doing okay with all this until today. I've given up trying to get her back and am trying to move on with my life. She left and doesn't want to be with me. I spent too much time trying to change her mind and I realized it wasn't healthy. I would love for her to come back, but I can't do anything to make her do that. I guess the reality of everything is finally setting in. Even my dreams have changed lately. I used to dream of her coming back and everything being great between us. The last few nights I've dreamt of her having a new boyfriend. Man I'm a mess.... Sorry for rambling, guess I just needed to vent
GrayClouds Posted January 30, 2010 Posted January 30, 2010 It's been four months to the day since my girlfriend of nearly 4 years and I split up. I have been having a really bad day emotionally and I couldn't figure out why. I've been doing fairly well for the last week or so. Then I realized the date. I don't know if that's really why but it makes sense. It could be that she texted me something meaningless on Monday and let herself into our place twice this week while I was at work. We used to live together and she still has keys. It could be that one of our mutual friends has called me the last 2 days. I thought I was doing okay with all this until today. I've given up trying to get her back and am trying to move on with my life. She left and doesn't want to be with me. I spent too much time trying to change her mind and I realized it wasn't healthy. I would love for her to come back, but I can't do anything to make her do that. I guess the reality of everything is finally setting in. Even my dreams have changed lately. I used to dream of her coming back and everything being great between us. The last few nights I've dreamt of her having a new boyfriend. Man I'm a mess.... Sorry for rambling, guess I just needed to vent No your not a mess, your just at a point where little more hope has died and you get to grieve it. It has only been 4 months in a 4 year realtionship so be kind to yourself. Make sure your doing all of the LS requirements...exercising, journaling, hobbies, friends, ect. Hang in there is does get better. And keep on venting
Author rec2 Posted February 21, 2010 Author Posted February 21, 2010 Time to vent again.... My emotions have been getting the best of me lately. These last few weeks have been so hard. I feel like it just happened yesterday. I miss her so much. Why can't I let this go? Why does she consume my thoughts? It's been over 4 months and I still think of her constantly. Contact from her has been a little more frequent lately but it's nothing of substance. Just simple questions like can I pick this up, etc. Not what I want to hear from her... With each day that passes I'm thinking I'm one day closer to her calling me to say she regrets her decision. I know that isn't healthy but that is how I've been thinking lately.
GrayClouds Posted February 21, 2010 Posted February 21, 2010 I will repeat: It has only been 4 months in a 4 year realtionship so be kind to yourself. Make sure your doing all of the LS requirements...exercising, journaling, hobbies, friends, ect. Hang in there is does get better. And keep on venting Are you doing the other things too?
Author rec2 Posted February 21, 2010 Author Posted February 21, 2010 Journaling and hobbies, yes. Exercise and friends, not so much. When I write in my journal I find myself dwelling on her too much. My hobbies take my mind off her, but it is only temporary. I do need to start going back to the gym. That always makes me feel better. I'm struggling to find the energy or will to do that though. As for friends, I really don't have any here. I moved to this city so we could be closer to her family. All the people I knew were the people she went to college with or grew up with. I can't hang out with them anymore for obvious reasons.
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