Iam bulimic.... im trying so hard to stop......

[foodjunkie]

Hi all.... im bulimic.... i cant stop.... i have tried..... it comes and goes in phases.... ive noticed when things are going good in my life i stop..... but when things arent going as good or i find myself losing control of all my personal problems example: relationships..... i start it right back up again..... i know its wrong...... i know i should seek help for it...... i just cant bring myself to doing so..... my family knows about it...... but they dont understand i just cant STOP.... i guess im posting this because im hoping someone will help me deal with this.....

[moimeme]

Bulimia is a very difficult condition to treat and you'll not find the expert help you need on a board like this, unfortunately. Please don't be afraid or ashamed to ask to see a doctor about this. You need to deal with people who really know what they are doing! Best wishes to you in beating your bulimia.

[tattoomytoe]

i totally know! i have been anorexic/ bulimic for 9 years. i am not anorexic anymore, which i often wish i was so at least i wouldn't eat, but i still have weird food choices and am very restrictive on what i allow myself to eat then keep down.

What i have done that helps a lot, is i now live with my bf of a year, he knows all about me, not that he really understands, and he is one of those skinny guys that can eat everything and not gain weight. but since we are living together making up excuses for why things are missing, or why all my money is going into fast food..it doesn't fly with him. also when i do erat regularly, with or around him i do not eat anything that will freak me out and cause me to purge, and i do not eat a ton, i have to control myself so i will not have the urge to. and it is kinda cool, how i can do this.

i have been through numerous treatments and programs and hospitalized, all that , but what i think is the major factor is that i finally have someone i love and that loves me, but unlike my family, he could decide that he doesn't want to deal with my crap and leave. Not that i know that he would, but i keep that in my head and it really does help.

i do not want to hinge my recovery on him (what if we break up?), but it works for now.

 

also i am 24, maybe you will be lucky and not damage your teeth, but i have 5 natural teeth left. i mean with no root canals or caps, the rest were worn away be acid. and if you want to know pain and expense! whew i tell you what! but ask me anything, and if you need someone to talk to just post away!

[Caddy]

I think you already know that you need some professional help with beating this.

 

Please see a doctor asap! Good luck to you!

[snookie118]

[font=arial][/font][color=blue][/color] i kno yall got issues wit dis 'monster' as i like to call it, ive started wen i was 12..im 14 now...my lifes a wreck..so much **** ive been through...a teenager neva been through...but now 2 yrs later, my life is on da line, i stood up, though i dont want to give up dis 'monster' i have too...and i am...tomorrw im goin to impateint at ..The Renfrew Center, in PA....ill b bak...to update...nd hopefully overcame dis "monster" to all da grls/women...dont give up..dont say u cant ..i dont kno how...i was like dat...than realized i CAN NOT live a normal life cuz da ONLY thing goin through ur head is to throw up ur food....dats not da answer....i jus hope ull make thee right choice...i mean, honestly...eventually, suttin will happen, if not now than later, i lost my brother cuz he did dis same thing...and i will not los my life, and leave my mom wit nothing cuz all she has is me....i wish da best for me, and my family..and boyfriend for being there...friends? they all turned agaisnt me if anyone was wonderin were that category fitted in...<33

[moimeme]

Best of luck to you. You CAN do this!

[jenny]

sometimes i see young women in classes who are so thin i find myself checking their knuckles or breath for the tell tale signs.

 

bulimia is about control, but also about drama. in my opinion, it's how the diseases of anorexia and bulimia differ - the pathology of bulimia is more active and more about enacting punishment than the hyper restriction of anorexia.

 

the techniques to persuade young women to stop bulimia interest me: they are often aesthetic - your hair, teeth, nails, and skin suffers sometimes irreperable damage by this behaviour, but that does not matter much when you realize you've eaten something with 900 calories, really, does it?

 

get some help...there are a lot of resources to help with this problem. try to find a counsellor who has actually suffered the problem herself (i presume gender here, i should not) otherwise it may just sound like empty goschool! platitudes.

 

i wish you luck and love; you can overcome this if you want to, i promise.

[Sundaymorning]

When Women Stop Hating Their Bodies-book might help you.

BUt, as I have had many ED's in my life, you will never overcome them until you are absolutly sick and tired of it and you do not want it to serve its purpose anymore.

[Thinkalot]

I feel for you. I have not been anorexic or bulemic, but I have suffered an eating disorder, which really bordered on anorexia. (super control over what I ate, calorie counting, food deprivation). It is about control and order in your life I think (at least it was for me).

 

It's hard to overcome, but can be done. Make the decision to want to beat it, to really want to, and stick to it. Then seek professional help. Your life will become so much better when you do...it really will.

You can do it...good luck!!

[jenny]

bulimia is so about desperation: "i had some 129.35 toast at 3:17 am and it must be punished and extracted!!!!!"

 

get me day or night; i may not respond in time but i will f***in understand. please get help; it feels superior now but you will be happier soon....i promise. it's a thing that is not about anger. no one will f*** with you. no one will make you eat. i know: better dead than chubby. i know; please. please...PM me...no matter what i will respond like a needy sponsor; i am you.

[Thinkalot]

Yep, I can relate to the.."i ate this and must somehow do something to compensate". Like I said, not bulimia for me...but I was also an exercise addict, so I would work out extra hard to burnoff a chocolate slice I ate, with such 'weakness" so I thought.

 

Please do something now to help yourself out of this trap. Like jenny says, you probably do feel better than the rest of us right now, because you are so strong and controlled, and strict...but you can get past the place where you are right now, and feel much happier!!