ItsAllGoodAgain Posted January 28, 2010 Posted January 28, 2010 (edited) Alright its been nearly 5 months since I was dumped for baby's daddy. Been NC for 3 months. We were together for just over 5 months. I've taken many steps in focusing on me. I've returned to school for a career change, training for a marathon, stopped drinking and started dating again. Yet these past couple of days I can't get the ex out of my head. I've been thinking about her non stop. I wrote an email saying, "Wanted to let you know I'm thinking about you." Of course I have yet to send this. I know that it would probably mean nothing to her. I'm missing the girl. I want to hear her voice. I want to see her smile. I want to hear her laugh. I want to feel her touch. I haven't felt this way for months. Why now? Is this part of the cycle? Should I attempt to contact her. Maybe she misses me as well and would like to hear from me. Thats probably wishful thinking but is it worth the attempt? What the fudge!?!?!? Edited January 28, 2010 by ItsAllGoodAgain add
USMCHokie Posted January 28, 2010 Posted January 28, 2010 Don't do it. If she missed you, she would have tried contacting you. These sorts of mini-relapses are normal. Hey, I'm going through one right now myself. I've been dreaming about her a lot the past few nights, and I woke up feeling that same feeling of missing her and suddenly wanting to talk to her and see her. It happens...you just have to be strong through these bouts of longing, just like you were strong the past 3 months...don't give in...
Author ItsAllGoodAgain Posted January 28, 2010 Author Posted January 28, 2010 Gracias compadre! This will pass I'm sure. I just have to keep reminding myself that not being with her is for the better. I've had a lot of self reflection and made some big changes in my life. Maybe I just want her to know what she let go. Kind of rub it in her face you know. But I don't feel any negativity really. Maybe I'm yearning for that conection the two of us shared. I haven't been able to find it eslewhere. Not that I've been activley looking, but those feelings felt great. I don't know, I just hope this doesn't last long and this is the last one.
USMCHokie Posted January 29, 2010 Posted January 29, 2010 Gracias compadre! This will pass I'm sure. I just have to keep reminding myself that not being with her is for the better. I've had a lot of self reflection and made some big changes in my life. Maybe I just want her to know what she let go. Kind of rub it in her face you know. But I don't feel any negativity really. Maybe I'm yearning for that conection the two of us shared. I haven't been able to find it eslewhere. Not that I've been activley looking, but those feelings felt great. I don't know, I just hope this doesn't last long and this is the last one. This is not the point of NC. What she feels, thinks, and does at this point is of no concern to you, and the things you are feeling, thinking, and doing should not be influenced by her. You are doing NC for YOU.
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