ms.ac Posted January 27, 2010 Posted January 27, 2010 Last night my phone starts to ring... i look down and it is my ex!!! We had a horrible break up, read my previous posts. We were together for almost 5 yrs... and he completely broke my heart.. crushed it as much as he could.. bragged about how this new girl, older, divorced, with a kid was the best thing in the world, they went on vacation together for new years.. and put me down over and over to make me feel like complete crap, he was acting with anger towards me and i was the one who did nothing! He told me he never wanted to talk to me again.. he was going to change his number, i was going to be alone for the rest of my life, everything you can think of... he made it like i was a joke and him and his new girl were laughing at me.. well needless to say i was crushed.. i the last time i saw him was 2 months ago, the last time we talked was 38 days ago... and i have been sooo much better this week was the first week i finally smiled and meant it.. i have been having fun, this past weekend i had a blast.. i went out, got attention from a lot of other guys, and was even interested in one guy who is friends with one of my best friends and i am supposed to hang out with this weekend. When people say there is that ex boyfriend sense it is sooo true! Just when everything is finally looking up, look whos calling me. I didnt answer... my heart was beating a mile a minute but i didnt answer. He left a message, which he never does, saying he thought he saw me driving so called and was seeing whats up and stuff.. like nothing happened.. like we are friends... you broke my heart.. you did something awful how can you just call to say whats up... I laughed and felt great because I feel he made an excuse to call me because either he is regretting it or he misses me... and frankly i know that he just wants to make sure i am still emotionally connected, that he still has power over me... if i would answer im sure he would be looking for that rise out of me, acting like he is great.. mayb bring up teh girl, i dont know... but what should i do!! why did he call me... he knows my car well,, im sure he knew it wasnt me.. and even if it was why call me.. its obviously an excuse.. im sooo confused!! what if he calls again.. what do I do.. this is my first love and i obviously still love him, we have been through a lot but he put me through so much pain!! help!
sunrae Posted January 27, 2010 Posted January 27, 2010 Ignore him.... Dont call him back, dont reply via text or email.. Ignore him... He showed his true colors during the break up and you dont need that in your life. Sounds like things are going well, and you are moving on, so continue down that positive path. Youre doing great, so please ignore him and keep moving forward.
Author ms.ac Posted January 27, 2010 Author Posted January 27, 2010 I know i should ignore him its just hard, text and email isnt even an option so its just calling. I am so proud i ignored last night. Why would he call me?? I don't get it. This is going to drive me crazy, I was so happy he called because i felt so good that it wasn't me calling and that maybe he was finally regretting it... I just dont know but its starting to get to me, and now its starting to bother me because i am confused. Making me believe he wanted to be with me while dating someone else behind my back is awful... and all the hurtful things he said.. if he wanted to call me he should be saying sorry.. not acting like we are friends... ughhh hopefully he is seeing he made a big mistake, i bet he is still with the other girl too
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