Dark_of_the_Moon Posted January 25, 2010 Posted January 25, 2010 I have just come through a very tough couple of weeks. I feel like I need to apologize to all you wish ones on this board. You warned me! You did. NC means NC. Ever, ever, ever. My Ex came back...No, I have not taken him back, but I made the mistake of letting him talk to me. Smile at me. I am to the point I wonder if he even realizes how many lies he tells and what the truth is? Well, he is just the same....and I guess I have to just accept that the attraction I feel to him, will always be in my make up...but, I somehow had the strength to just turn and walk away. Nearly killed me inside. But, I know, he is not right....not for me and I can't believe that I still feel something inside for him that I fear will never die, no matter how horrible I know he is now. I will never fall for it again, but the scar will always be there I fear. I wish I could feel some attraction, any attraction to anyone else. So I could find some hope that I will get over this stupidity. I wish I knew what it was about me. I don't seem to be able to attract the right men. There are a couple guys around here now that express interest, but...my gut tells me no. From now on I will listen to that little voice.
HeavenOrHell Posted January 25, 2010 Posted January 25, 2010 Well done for walking away hun... I thought maybe it was a bit easier for those who know their ex isn't right for them or is a b**tard than if their ex is a lovely person (like my ex dammit). But maybe it's not? I find myself trying to think of my ex as nasty in some way, but he just isn't and now I wish he was, then it wouldn't be so much of a loss. Problem is I know I've lost a good one. Hope we can both move on from this and find peace
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