LostWitness Posted January 25, 2010 Posted January 25, 2010 So basically, here is my story from another thread I made: http://www.loveshack.org/forums/t211250/ My girlfriend has this blog. And about 10 days ago, on the 20th day of no contact she posts this: http://www.cityofmemory.org/map/?#/story/2311/ I really do not understand her intentions. This has not been the only story of hers, and she has seemingly tried to contact me indirectly through her blog. So I made her a city of memories "story" and posted it on my blog next to hers. She has not responded to it, but I can tell through my blog that she went onto it, and clicked the link. Anyways, she and I have a lot of mutual friends. Recently one of our mutual friends hung out with my ex, and she told me that she cares about me as a friend, but no longer has any relationship type feelings for me anymore. She wants to experiment with other people, and I guess this is her right in college, but it hurts me obviously because we used to do everything together, and now she is so cold to me. So I guess my intrinsic feelings lead us to the point: I really want to cancel her from my life by deleting her from facebook and trying to start over, but I don't think I have the courage yet to do so. She told me that during the summer we can hang out, but I know she is just stringing me along: it is quite obvious as a matter of fact. I just still have that young boy inside of myself telling me things will work out even after 6 months of breaking up, and now 31 days of No Contact. She said she needs time and space, and at one moment said I never gave time for her to see what it was like to miss me because i always tried getting back with her. I don't know if i can erase her from facebook. I check all of her photos, and all of her wall posts because I can't help but know what she is up to, and I know she doesn't do the same thing to me, because she is in college and it is a lot easier for her to move on and not think about me. I still hurt so much inside. It is very hard, going from loving someone and then trying to figure out ways to make excuses to hate them. I want to delete her from my life, but there is that little voice inside of me that tells me it will work, and she won't meet another guy who is better. Every single days passes so slowly, and I wish I could have prevented meeting her. I just want to take drastic action and delete her and i need you guys to put me up to it. I don't know if I should wait another 30 days and prepare myself for it after still going no contact. I just feel so sick and confused, she is always on my mind even when i get with other girls who might be better looking that her. Please help me?
DiscoChick Posted January 25, 2010 Posted January 25, 2010 I am sorry. I've read so many posts on this site about people missing their exes and how they find something in every little thing. I don't see it. Her friend told you she's no longer interested. Move on. I don't know you or her but her friend does. Accept the hurt and move forward.
gaudi Posted January 25, 2010 Posted January 25, 2010 Don't think I'm allowed to advise you on this one pal. I was at 42 days NC yesterday, and I went and broke it. If this helps, yep that's right, I wish I hadn't.
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