Perhaps Posted January 25, 2010 Posted January 25, 2010 So, I've been doing alright past few days thanks to LS. BUT. And I think many LS'ers will agree with me when I say that I miss don't exactly miss my ex, given the person she is today. What I do miss who she used to be, the way I felt around the old her. And I know it's the past. It just gets Really hard to accept at times. I catch myself thinking of her when I'm alone... hell, when I'm in the shower, I'm talking to myself, saying things I would say if she were to come back... ever catch yourself doing that? Just thinking of how you'd yell at them (but not too long, 'cause that'll come off as needy) and what exactly you'd say that would really hit home with them? I hate that. It feels like I'm entering into this daily routine where I don't miss her as much (thanks to NC) but I think of her every moment I have to spare.. not the her now but the her that she used to be when things were good. I feel better these days, aside from the periodic breakdown, but I do think of the old her and it feels like this won't go away. So, I ask... is this normal? It feels like I'm climbing my way to the peak but all of a sudden, I've reached level ground but I know it isn't ground level. It feels like everything is leveling off but not not as high as I'd hoped. Another thing is that almost everyone says you never get over your first love. To be honest, that's the Last thing I want to hear at this point in time. I know people don't forget any serious relationship, but I hate hearing "your first love always holds a special place in your heart". Stupid media setting up amazing precedents on what love is. We hates them, precious. Grr.
hellopeople Posted January 25, 2010 Posted January 25, 2010 I feel better these days, aside from the periodic breakdown, but I do think of the old her and it feels like this won't go away. So, I ask... is this normal? Yeah it is. I find myself thinking about them (the old them I thought I knew/ liked) whenever I'm alone or doing something that I used to do with them. It's like everything I do has a memory attached to it regarding them. It hurts and feels like it will never go away. But it will. You have to believe that. Another thing is that almost everyone says you never get over your first love. God I hope not.
sedgwick Posted January 25, 2010 Posted January 25, 2010 Yes, I feel that way all the time. And yes, I got over my first love.
Author Perhaps Posted January 25, 2010 Author Posted January 25, 2010 Yes, I feel that way all the time. And yes, I got over my first love. Thank you! Yeesh, I've been scared thinking I'll never get over it. I've been thinking a LOT about it all and I've realized that in essence, we hold ourselves back, telling ourselves nothing will top this or how we'll never get over it. I admit, it's tough to picture yourself FULLY happy without your ex but I do believe the positive attitude is half the battle won, sort of like a self fulfilling prophecy.
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