StrawberryGal Posted January 24, 2010 Posted January 24, 2010 When I was 8 years old, I met who would become my first love. I was visiting Europe and he was 4 years older than me, and lived next door to my aunt. So while I was in Europe, over the course of time it was pretty evident that he really liked me(he sent me flowers, wanted me to kiss him, said sweet things), but I did not return the feelings. Even though I secretly liked him as well. I realized my true feelings for him, five and a half years ago. We began to be more "serious", and began dating, but we did not have a lot of time for I was leaving in a month. In the meantime he had to work and he also occupied his time with his friends and other activities. The day before I was going to leave he told me that he would not be able to make it to say goodbye. So we said goodbye through a text. I was upset the entire day and decided to go for a walk with my cousins and a few friends. And while on this walk we stopped to rest and talk at a bus stop. And my cousin tells me to look outside, and there is the guy standing there smiling. I run into his arms and we kiss. We say goodbye that same night, for the next day he had to leave for work early. After I returned we kept in touch but I found out that he was messing around with other girls. Then we got into a big fight and lost touch. I did not forget about him though, he had my heart despite everything. Everything in my life involved him in some way. In the meantime I found someone new but could not stop thinking about him. Then about 15 months ago he re-connected with me and all of my old feelings came back, even though we were both in a relationship. I made the huge mistake of pouring out my heart to him and telling him how I felt. Even though he said he felt the same way, I don't know whether to believe him or not. We kept in touch and then he told me that his girlfriend was pregnant, she went off the pill behind his back without him knowing. I still kept talking to him despite everything. For I loved him no matter what. And he told me that he still loved me and wanted to be with me. That he did not want to be with her because of what she did and only the baby was important to him. He insists that he is still in love with me, but because of the long distance things are rather complicated. Yet I found out that he was keeping in touch with his ex's and telling them things similar to me. I don't know what to do, I love him, think about him all the time, and feel empty without him in my life. But then again I don't know if he is just playing with my emotions. I would really appreciate some advice on what I should do! Thank You!
aerogurl87 Posted January 24, 2010 Posted January 24, 2010 Yet I found out that he was keeping in touch with his ex's and telling them things similar to me. This should give you your answer right here. He's feeding you the same line he's feeding his other exes, so your not special to him. Sounds like he just wants you there to stroke his ego.
dietpepsi Posted January 25, 2010 Posted January 25, 2010 This should give you your answer right here. He's feeding you the same line he's feeding his other exes, so your not special to him. Sounds like he just wants you there to stroke his ego. Very true, he could also be feeling lonely, and reaching out to try to get some attention from you and others to alleviate his loneliness and make himself feel better.
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