i only want happiness

[bring it back]

im a 26yo female. i broke up with my boyfriend of 7.5years a year & 3 months ago he didnt accept the break up& for about 4 months he continualy followed me, at work, at training, pass my house, look over my back fence to see if i was home all those sort of things.

after several attempts at asking him to stop i ended up applying for an intervention order.so for the following 4months we couldnt speak& i had hurt this guy like crazy.

i saw him out and we still had all our feelings there for each other we started to see each other again. for 4 months it was great to have him back & i also felt very reserved i kept thinking about what i had done to him & hid the fact we were seeing each other from our friends but our best friends and family knew.

by seeing him brought up all the old reasons for leaving and i could see the hurt i had created in him i got scared and just left him again and ignored his text messages bc i met a guy out who was everything i wanted in my ex just without all the history and negativity from family & friends.

we started dating its been 4 months & everything is amazing.i knew i was going to see my ex so for a couple of weeks it was all i thought about i didnt really distant myself from my current boyfriend but did start to think negativly towards it.

when i saw my ex all our mutual friends were there too and told him i still love him and want to be with him (my ex). so i broke up with my current boyfriend two days ago.ive always loved my ex and feel i always will & he is the same but does that mean we should be together or do we just want back what we had for the 7.5years & are we jealous that our mutual friends are having babies and getting married and looking at buying houses all dreams we had together.

im also scared to loose the fantastic guy if just met if i choose to go back to my ex for a 4th time.

[nomad0792]

Well, why did you break up in the first place?

 

How old are you?