nobmagnet Posted January 23, 2010 Share Posted January 23, 2010 its crumbs she is throwing. Dont get sucked in. She IMO is seeing if you are over her. Each time she contacts you it puts you back. It isnt fare on you love. Can you block her on your phone? If you can I would honey. nobby xx Link to post Share on other sites
nomad0792 Posted January 28, 2010 Share Posted January 28, 2010 u still around ditched? any updates man? Link to post Share on other sites
Author ditched Posted January 28, 2010 Author Share Posted January 28, 2010 no updates. no new calls/pocketdials from the ex. bummer. my urge to contact her has been a bit exacerbated since, but i've stayed strong and havent contacted her at all. even though i really really want too. who knows, maybe ill get pocketdialed on Valentine's day. ha One of our favorite shows are coming back on tv. i've watched every single episode with her. Now i dont even know if im gonna watch the new season, for fear of it depressing me. i'm tempted to call/text her and see if she knows it's on and if she'll be watching it. but thats probably stupid. it's been since June, i really wish i could let go of this! anyhoo... Link to post Share on other sites
nomad0792 Posted January 30, 2010 Share Posted January 30, 2010 yeah, me and my ex watched all the Dexter episodes together and I can't bring myself to watch it...lame. Weeds as well... So, it's been 7 months for you, don't be so hard on yourself...so what. Just keep NC. My butt-dials have set me a little back as well. It will be 2 weeks since tomorrow when I received them. I have to say I'm so damn pissed that this relationship came to an end. It's the first one where I authentically get anxiety attacks. I miss her more than I want to admit and I'm at a loss as to how she has managed to stay away from me as well. I will check back every once in a while and check up on you. Keep your head up man!!! Link to post Share on other sites
Author ditched Posted February 2, 2010 Author Share Posted February 2, 2010 I know what everyone says about NC and breadcrumbs. And my logical mind knows its true. My ex texted me the other day telling me that she got some new kittens. Of course, I was ecstatic that she called. But I tried to stay calm. Told myself “don’t respond immediately”, “don’t be so available”, “make her sweat it out a little for once”. So…I didn’t respond for two nights. While I was waiting to send a response, I felt good. I felt real good. I felt calm and at peace with everything. When I thought about her, I didn’t feel sad, I didn’t want to cry, and sulk, and break things. I was a calm. So I sent her a response two nights later and of course, I didn’t get a response. So now I’m back to waiting and wondering, and suddenly I’m not at peace. I’m sad, I’m frustrated, I’m obsessively checking my phone to make sure I didn’t miss a text or something. Given, I just sent this response last night. But my brain is in overdrive, wondering, analyzing, and theorizing. And wishing………..F*&%!!!!!! I feel like I waited to long to respond and just ruined my chance to reconnect. LOST is back tonight. I’ve seen EVERY episode of this show with her. Tonight will be the first without. I know its just a dumb tv show, but it was part of our tiny little life together: Lost, take-out, and some red wine. And its really bumming me out. Oh well. God, the thought of her finding this forum and reading my posts terrifies me. That would certainly ruin any effort I’ve put in since our breakup to keep her from realizing how broken up I am about all of this. Hmmmm. Okay…that’s all ive got for now…carry on Link to post Share on other sites
nomad0792 Posted February 3, 2010 Share Posted February 3, 2010 Well **** ditched!!! I'm glad, in a not so good way, that you heard from her, but these damn breadcrumbs again. It's definitely not a bad sign she contacted you, but it's definitely messing with your healing. I don't think you waited too long, but just be careful about the playing games. My suggestion...the next time she text you, wait a couple of hours and then send her something back that's similar to what you would send a girl that you don't care much for. Almost as if you're being nice and cordial. When you said you were elated to hear from her and it lasted a few days...I can only imagine the elation you felt for that period of time. I envy you, but I also know it would throw back into the cycle much deeper than I am. How was your mindset before you got those butt-dials last month? Were you feeling like you were moving on? Link to post Share on other sites
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