richardcruz Posted January 18, 2010 Posted January 18, 2010 Click on the link below to read my original post. It's pretty long. http://www.loveshack.org/forums/t215411/ So this is day 6 of NC with my Ex. Sure I've been tempted to call her but so far I've been able to hold off. I told myself the only way that I would speak to her is if she initiates the contact, since she was the one that left me. Anyways I've been trying to get myself to come to terms that I will need to meet someone else in time and that things between my ex and I were not meant to work. I've gone online to all the usual dating sites and it hits me that I am not really attracted to anyone. Is this normal??? This maybe that my self esteem is in the gutter. In their description all of the girls ask for these guys to possess all of these amazing characteristics, of which I am not. I'm not the funniest person you'll ever meet. My sex is far from amazing. Maybe this is because of my anti-dep medication and little to no consumption of red meat?? (low testosterone perhaps). Then again maybe it's just a vicious cycle and my actual depression is the cause of it all. Maybe I need to see the Doc and get that checked out. I am not the most spontaneous person you'll ever meet and am not necessarily the best looking nor unattractive guy you'll meet either. In all honesty I don't think I have what it takes to fulfill their criteria. It's quite funny but I don't really even find the girl that my Ex thought that I was cheating with to be too attractive, and actually after a while of talking to her, the bit of attraction wears off. LOL If my ex only knew that she left me because she thought I was messing around on her with this girl and in reality there is nothing there. Oh well I tried to tell her that I hadn't cheated on her and that I was just networking with people after she left me; forcibly changing my status to single. Anyways I wonder why I feel this way. Is it a physiological thing with the chemicals in my brain or is it due to my fresh breakup wound? I do have some good characteristics I suppose. I do have a good job and have some intelligence. I do go to the gym to stay in decent shape. But be that as it may, I still don't feel well qualified when taking into account the criteria that women seek for in a man on these sites. One thing for sure, I am absolutely tired of the dating seen. 30% percent of woman in my area is hot but yet are stupid as s$%t. The other 40% don't possess any of the two qualities. The remaining 28% are intelligent and are attractive in their own respects, however these are the ones that have boyfriends. So you have to go out there and try to find one of these women from the 2 percentile while sorting through 70 percent of the undesirable. Obviously the 28% is easily eliminated from race due to their relationships. I know my numbers are skewed by my current feelings but this is just the way seeing it right now. I do consider myself a pretty loyal person but maybe this is why I also stuck with my ex when she left me all those times. Maybe this is why I stuck around when things in the relationship became one-sided (ex. she was never wrong). I wonder how long I'll be alone after this one...
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