kristinabopp Posted January 17, 2010 Posted January 17, 2010 :mad: i just looked at this girls profile in facebook *she added me before when she found out the me and his friend *who is my x* were dating. ****! now that me and him are not dating she added his sister! and now shes like putting a comment on his sisters picture! they havent even met yet! she became friends with my bf when my ex's family friend introduced her to him ONLINE!and when i asked x before, he told me he doesnt like her, its just friends! but by the way she acted and walled me bf before shes like *aw you and your gf look cute together* wtf! shes such a bitch! im too jealous! idk! im too doubtful! i dont even know if i can trust anyone anymore!SHES PROBABLY TRYING TO STEAL MY BOYFRIEND!IDK!MAYBE! but idk! im in too much pain rightnow! i should have never look at her profile and his sisters profile! both of them are my friends! ****! it made me cry more, i know ive been crying everyday since the break up, but this is just to much! facebook sucks!!!! my ex was sooo inlove with me and promised me a lot of things and told me to trust him and then the next day he broke up with me! WTF is wrong with him! we were each others first!! weve been living together for 9months and dating for 1yr and 2 months! AAAHHHHHH!!!! im soooooo angry!!!! im so jealous! im so mad! i feel sick when i think that he might be or going out with someone!!! i just wanna die right now just to not feel this pain!!! he like broke up with me december 24th, *NICE CHRISTMAS GIFT FOR ME!* thats so heartless of him!!!
xtreme Posted January 17, 2010 Posted January 17, 2010 Damn, but she broke up with me but she told me that she was question herself if she still love me for a few months and then that's when it finally exploded last week. But yeah I told her how can she say she loved me and promised me things too on the weekend but on Monday it was over...I said the same thing I dont understand...I keep looking at her facebook and stuff ..but also she didnt block me she said she wanted to be friends..I said dont think of me as a friend you know since I still have hope inside me..but I dont wanna keep contacting her anymore..I want her to come to me since she is the one that wanted to break up..Sigh but it hurts I wanna talk to her, just talking to her makes me happy you know..Me and you are facing the same situation..
TaraMaiden Posted January 17, 2010 Posted January 17, 2010 Why did you look in the first place? Haven't you read enough on on here to know that you never go on FaceBook to check things out because all you get in return is pain? Facebook DOESN'T suck. What you do, and the results you get - suck. The moral of the story is: Cut every single means of contact or checking up you can, and don't give in to temptation. Otherwise, you'll just get more helpings of the same pudding.
Author kristinabopp Posted January 17, 2010 Author Posted January 17, 2010 xtreme! do NC. it will just make u have false hopes by you thinking that she will come back. dont expect to much.. im doing the same thing, im not expecting a lot because i know in the end it will hurt me BIG TIME! im hoping sometimes, but im controlling it.. because i dont wana go back to day 1 of grieving. when he broke up with me he said so many stuff like he doesnt want to be with me anymore blablabla. its to much, i mean how can he be so heartless! i realized hes a total jerk! you know, i left my family just for him, i fought for him. i dont even know if he appreciated everything that i did. idk. i just get to furious knowing about what happened to me and him. but xtreme! do nC now! block her in everything, i promise you its more better! do it! if ever you wanna talk to her, just talk here in LS! dont look into facebook anymore.*damn i should notgo to facebook either coz i dont want to see his mutual friends to me its more painful!* so yep, give it a try! i know you and me are facing the same situation and i know it suuuuuucks but what can we do? they left us, they left the person who is willing to give the moon to them, but oh well, they will realized that even if they know that already they will come to the point in where REGRET will haunt them.
Author kristinabopp Posted January 17, 2010 Author Posted January 17, 2010 TARa~! coz i cant control it! im should have never look at it! im so stupid! i blocked him on msn! im permanent invisible to his yahoo so he wont see me online! but i sucks really bad that he left me!! aah!!!! it makes me so furious! im leaving my facebook online though, i barely look at live news feed. im just using it so that when my friends will chat me they can just leave a msg. but sometimes facebook is refreshing itself that i will make me look at the news live feed!. alright, fine, i will try and control myself not to look at it anymore. damn facebook!
xtreme Posted January 17, 2010 Posted January 17, 2010 For now I wont block her..but I wont talk to her or message her, she didn't block me you know but that's how i am for having a good heart lol My relationship was long distance too sounds like your was too?
Author kristinabopp Posted January 17, 2010 Author Posted January 17, 2010 i know, i have a good heat too and HE KNOWS IT. he blocked me first, i just did the same so he wont see me online or something. well, the first 5months i guess, was LDR. and then i left my family to be with him and live with him. *we live together with his family, which made it more worst because they wont stop bugging us* we were about to move out but his dad borrowed money from us, that was supposed to be our money to move out, but then when his dad borrowed it, we didnt get to move out anymore. and his sister was kind of mean to me. but when i was living there together with his family, I NEVER TALK BACK TO THEM eventhough its really painful. i have to swallowed my pride..they will say bad stuff to me in spanish so that i wont understand it. but i insist my bf to translate it to me because i dont wanna look like i dont know anything. so he will translate it to me, but sometimes he wont. so whenever i will find out what they say to me, i put it out on him, like instead of me releasing it to my friend, i released it to him i say wtf is wrong with them. ur sister is a freak, ur mom is annoyingsometimes blablabla. *WHICH IS NOT GOOD BECAUSE THAT IS STILL HIS FAMILY AND I SHOULD HAVE NEVER SAID THAT BUT I REALLY NEED TO RLEASE MY ANGER TOO, HE KNOWS IM HURT AND HE WAS MAD WHEN HIS FAMILYWILL SAY STUFF TO US,HE TOLD ME ITS FINE, BUT NOT EVERYDAY, WELL BECAUSE EVERYDAY THEY WILL SAY STUFF TO ME,AND I JUST CANTTAKE IT.* everything was a mess! we lived together for 9months, our love was a fairy tale. it was the best thing ever. and until now my love for him still goes deeper and deeper each day.. i dont even know him anymore, he changed the next day and it seems like its not him! if you just know my story, damn u will be shock too!
xtreme Posted January 17, 2010 Posted January 17, 2010 Damn, I would go and visit my girl too and she would come down. I'm spanish so I would always tell my girl what my family said but luckily my family liked her. When I went up to Canada to visit her, she would translate everything her family said since shes asian but luckily her family liked me too. But the 2.5 years were good except in a LDR i guess i stopped paying attention which made her change which i really regret you know but i didnt notice when it was too late..We talked about being together forever but now..all i do now is listen to music to help me cope too..
Author kristinabopp Posted January 17, 2010 Author Posted January 17, 2010 at first his family liked me. his mom even told him that *she can see us together forever* and he was happy and i was too. i just dont really talk a lot to them because his parents talks spanish all the timem they understand english and talk some, but sometimes they are having a hard time bout english. and its ok coz i have a long patience, but his mom gets frustrated sometimes coz shes having a hard time talking english. but his sister just wont stop us, you know.. she always wants everything on her. but idk. i dont mind. he knows me and his sister hates each other.*thats what he thinks* but i liked her sister before but when i stayed in their house longer she keeps saying bad stuff and she never stop her mouth talking bout me and she keeps minding our business. my EX knows his sister. but i guess, when it comes to his family *IM NOTHING*. i dont have anything but myself. he choose them more than me, its fine i dont mind but it sucks because he knows how his family treated me, they were nice sometimes not. he even told me that *i feel like they are treating us like slaves* and when he told me that i was like *FINALLY!U OPENED YOUR EYES!*. he took it back again. coz his worship his family. he is chilean, and im asian *filipina*. i have loooongpatience when i was in there house.my family liked him too, but when my mom found out that he left me out of the blue she said that he is immature because he cant have a stable decision. he always changed his decisions. he promised this and that and then in the end took it back *which is really immature*. but i dont care, i love him.no matter what my mom says, i will always follow what my decision is. im old enough to make/follow my own decisions. i know you and me notice everything when it was tooo late. we both regret everything. he even proposed to me many times. told me he will never ever ever leave me the day before he broke up. but what happened? the next day boom! he broke up! he became a TALK****. *means liar,took everything back and cant make his promises*. damn we both suck!!! i feel like a total loser because of this!i feel like its my lost not him!
xtreme Posted January 17, 2010 Posted January 17, 2010 I think as long as we did our best that's all we could of done..its their decision to love us or not and yeah it did look so immature for your bf and my gf to change decisions so quick..even though its hard so far im not talking to my ex as much as i want..but im still concentrating on my goals to complete college soon and have a career but i still wish she would be there in the future..
Author kristinabopp Posted January 18, 2010 Author Posted January 18, 2010 true. see told ya. its immature. they cant stand up on their own. unlike you and me. the fact that he broke up with me through yahoo messenger.! im the same, im concentrating on my goals *WITH NO RELATIONSHIP OR SOMEONE WITH ME.THATS MORE BETTER COZ U WONT BE DISTRACTED* im doing my best to get into the school i like in DC. im like doing everything ASAP coz the deadline will be on march1. i know.. i wish he is there with me too in the future and see me succeed in life.. what im going to do when i get to dc is, make sure i wont bump into him or one of his family, make new friends, hang out with my friends, put all my anger by concentrating in my college, have a new hobby and do anything that will make me not think of him... i know thats hard though, but i wanna give it a try. and i dont think i will be in a relationship for now, it will take me a looong time to be in a relationship again or maybe not. i just cant force myself to love someone you know, specially that all i love is him and no one else, all i want is him and no one else. i cant even trust anyone too, i cant trust my family, friends and everyone. for me forgetting him is like trying hard to remember someone YOU NEVER MET. so its really impossible for me.i dont want to use someone just to get over him. i like some guys, but i dont see myself with anybody else, i like some guys but its hard to love them back knowing that my heart only belongs to him. i know you know what i mean.. thats a good thing that ur trying not to talk to her, i know i wanted to talk to my ex too, but he will never ever reply coz he told me he wont talk to me not for the next 6months. isnt that weird? you must continue doing nc xtreme. it will help you and me more. im in 3weeks NC and it sucks because time goes sooooooo sloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow. haha i imagine myself in dc and i feel excited and happy.. im not going back there just to be with him.NEVER! idont wanna look like a stalker lol. ill be there for school and for my friends! and to get away from cali. damn i hate california.
xtreme Posted January 18, 2010 Posted January 18, 2010 lol Thats good focus on yourself, I wanted to visit cali lol whats wrong with it, I'm not liking florida atm, i wanted to live in canada but now..lol Also thats what i told myself I cant see myself in another relationship it wouldnt be the same...Yeah..time does goo soo slowwwww seriously lol i just keep listening to music...sigh Yeah right now today is NC and see where it takes me...All i can do right now is keep improving myself for the future in another relationship..But i know the miss us hopefully sigh
Author kristinabopp Posted January 18, 2010 Author Posted January 18, 2010 haha really good focus. but for now i cant really escape sadness because im here in cali with family, and i just cant go out of the house! its like a dessert! lol this a very depressing place, unless you live in san francisco or los angeles. in dc everything is easy and i feel freee! lol ive been to florida, its nice too because of the beach! but its expensive! yea i listen to music too, but soometimes id rather not because i will be daydreaming again! everytime i listen to music i daydream and i dont like it because i should focus on reality. keep it up with NC. you will learn and see if you can do self control when your in NC. yea,. i know.. i hope our ex's miss us too.. do you ever want so say bad stuff to them when you guys broke up? i do!but i didnt do it, im to nice. haha.
xtreme Posted January 18, 2010 Posted January 18, 2010 I know what you mean i wanted to live in canada in montreal after i visited because its a big city you dont need a car..you have subway and stuff and it was really cool...so far im learning self control since i havent message her today once lol and i dont remember if i wanted to say bad stuff since i was really sad when she said..lol but maybe haha not sure but yeah i daydream a bit when i listen to music but i like it..i even got into asian music from her lol but when i listen to it im not sad haha just thinking about it sigh so many days how will i get through haha but i need to focus especially since im going to college her but if it was meant to be maybe she will come back..but i just dont wanna keep thinking that
Author kristinabopp Posted January 18, 2010 Author Posted January 18, 2010 omg!! his sister wants to live in canada too. his aunt lives in montreal! his sister even wants to live in canada. i do want to say bad stuff when he broke up with me, but theres no point. coz i was crying when he is saying everything and i had a breakdown. i know! i even got into some spanish songs too!but he didnt know haha. but i never listen to it anymore though. it justbrings back the memories. sometimes, you dont have to rely on destiny, if you guys want something, you will do it no matter what. because sometimes destiny is trying us. giving us a test/challenges to see if one of you will make it through. i know,, i feel you, i dont want to keep thinking that as well, but my mind/heart is crazy inlove with him. im like SURVIVING EVERYDAY!lol but we really need to focus about college right now. trust me, if your in NC for almost 2-3weeks you will feel kinda numb sometimes and will get mad why she did this and that.i know they are always on our mind, but really, im just letting time do the works. im like on the laptop 24/7 now! i just cant wait to start working and save money so i can go to dc asap. lol
xtreme Posted January 18, 2010 Posted January 18, 2010 haha yeah i gotchu lol but since this is my first day i still feel like messaging her since what happens if im pushing her away or if this is a test or challenge maybe i should keep talking to her to bring back our god memories..im so lost sigh !!! but ill see how long i can without messgaing or talking to her before she talks to me..and if she doesnt...then maybe she wasnt the one for me.......i wish now i had a baby with her since she really wanted 1 but i told her we need to think about our future and stuff its not that i didnt want 1 but i was taking about our future but now..its like wtf i should of had 1...oh well.. sigh
Author kristinabopp Posted January 18, 2010 Author Posted January 18, 2010 you will just get tired of messaging her because its giving you false hopes.. nc is the thing i can only think of for now. try ignore her for 1-2months or forever if you want or give her space until she realized that she wants you back. you know i got pregnant before but i got miscarriage because i wasnt really eating healthy, its all my fault. i was to stressed at work, stressed at home everything is stressful.thats was planned though, coz he wants to have a baby with me that time and i want it toO! im pregnant again right now, but i will abort it.. i was about to tell him im pregnant but if i tell him that he will think im just making it up so that he will come back to me.*and i dont want him to think like that you know..* so i kept my mouth shut. im still lost because i feel like aborting the baby is bad but i have to.. i dont want the baby to know that his dad left because his dad doesnt have a stable decision. and i dont want the baby to not have a daddy as well. so im still thinking of what to do.. damn, see, he left me in the middle of all my problems. but oh well. omg his parents were mad as hell when they found out that im pregnant before. it was MAY2009. he was crying so much when i lost the baby though.. i was depressed that time too. hey, its better that you didnt get her pregnant! coz what if she doesnt want to come back? you will just see her everytime because of the baby and it will hurt you more! what if she comes to play with the baby and shes with a guy? thats more painful! i hope you dont get mad, but its better to think it that way. im like dreaming thathe will come back one day and i keep looking at my phone if he called or what. but its better not to. they will come back the least you expect it!
xtreme Posted January 18, 2010 Posted January 18, 2010 Really really sad to hear in the situation that your in...can believe he did that and really sad about the baby...yeah maybe your right but ill never regret being with her..she showed me alot and made me grow now that im 20 and shes 22..she made me mature and i wont hate her...im just happy i had someone in my life like that made me grow as a person...sad about the baby..wish it didnt turn out like that but what can we do... except continue life..i hope to meet someone in the future that loves me for who i am and i hope you too...i hope next time you have a baby its with some1 who really treats you good and loves you..
Author kristinabopp Posted January 18, 2010 Author Posted January 18, 2010 yea, i cant believe it either. were both traumatized about our lost. i feel sad for the baby so bad! well thats true, im lucky that i met him. and he said he was lucky too because i taught him a lot of stuff. i dont hate him anyways. im just 1month older than him. hes 20 and im 20. we have so many in common. i will never regret being with his life even if its only for a short time. i feel like 1 yr and 2 months is not that long. but when we are together, we can feel to each other that me and him have been dating forever and it feels soooo good. dont worry, you will meet someone who loves you and will treat you right! and i will make sure i have to finish college first before i have a 2nd boyfriend. *oh my thats like in after 4-5yrs!* lol i dont mind, i want to be single for a long time. just dont close your door for the next relationship!! good luck to you and me!
xtreme Posted January 18, 2010 Posted January 18, 2010 Sounds good and you will have a good future Happy I met someone like you for advice hope we helped each other too haha It might be hard for us now..but soon we will be as happy as ever As much as we miss them..they need their space to see what went wrong and why they did it..but we cant control their decisions so we must do our best to keep moving and thinking about our future...^_^
Author kristinabopp Posted January 18, 2010 Author Posted January 18, 2010 i know right!me too, im glad we both understand each other. i know its hard for both of us, but atleast we gave our everything to them. its just up to them, i bet they will never find the love we have for them in anyone else! they might keep looking and crave the way we love them and the way we took care of them. but either way, its their lost, because they are the dumpers. and they dump us.. its our lost too, but mostly its theirs because they threw away the person who is there for them and will love them forever. thanks for listening btw!
xtreme Posted January 18, 2010 Posted January 18, 2010 uh huh, we did everything for them and listen and stuff for them. But they are the ones that will learn their mistake and hopefully learn from it..sigh love is crazy...what do your friends think about what happen?
Author kristinabopp Posted January 18, 2010 Author Posted January 18, 2010 love is crazy and painful. hopefully they learn from it though. well, when i told my friends about everything as in, very DETAILED. they were shocked. they told me that was weird, no one will ever do that. LOVE CANT JUST GO AWAY OVERNIGHT. specially if you have a special bonding with that person, thats just way to impossible. knwing that he is inlove with me.. and i am too. they told me, maybe something went wrong in their house coz i wasnt there anymore. they told me maybe his family said something to him that he can never say no or his family forced him to break up with me. or maybe they brainwashed him. but IDK. im confused. im lost. maybe he is confused and cant live a life without his family. too scared to move out of his home maybe. but i dont really know. he left me wondering.. a few hours earlier before he broke up, he took my address here in california, and i dnt know why he did it.*maybe he will send back the ring that i gave to him,but until know i havent got any mail in the mailbox yet.* but idk. im thinking all of the negative stuff. and its making me crazy. lol. im still wearing the ring he gave to me and the necklace though. i cant take it off. its hard. how bout you? what did your friends said about this?
xtreme Posted January 18, 2010 Posted January 18, 2010 Well my friends told me to try to move on, dont talk to her much, stuff i dont wanna do but i have to..also Im still wearing the ring from her..and she said shes still wearing my ring that i gave her..but it has a different meaning now...also love doesnt go away over night too unless the person was thinking that for months or weeks like my girl was thinking for months..but guys arnt good i picking out signals sigh ..but i learn though its these things in life that you learn and take with you into a new relationship...
Author kristinabopp Posted January 18, 2010 Author Posted January 18, 2010 i dont know if he is still wearing the ring i gave to him. but its up to them. eventhough they are thinking of the for months or weeks, you guys had a special bonding. and that makes everything special. im not good at picking signals either. but really, in my case, he told me not to leave him and even beg me not to leave him. and i didnt.he even told me he is going to marry me as soon as he gets here in california. we have so many plans together. but the next day he broke up. *so that means they love us because if theyve been thinking that for months and weeks, they WILL NEVER say those stuff, they should be cold towards us if they have been thinking of that.right?* you will feel it anyways.. but atleast now you and me know whats their problem, and its up to them if they will realized what they did. from now on i told myself, i will never ever believe when someone tell me that they love me forever. id rather hear *i love you so much* than hearing it with the word forever.
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