motive2002 Posted January 14, 2010 Posted January 14, 2010 I'm coming to terms with the fact that I am the crazy one. I am unstable. I've had therapy, tried some drugs, and I don't know if any progress is made, but I do know that my ex thinks I'm a psycho. It's not a very nice feeling. I had taken her rejection of me very hard and said some really awful things. Things for which I cannot reconcile. It's been almost 2 years now. I looked at her dating profile. She said she was looking for someone "drama-free" and "sane". That's what we all want, right? I guess I just don't have my **** together enough for a real relationship. Perhaps i never will. I wish I could reach out to her and tell her I'm sorry for acting the way I did, but I don't think it would ever matter to her. A small little ache inside of me re-appeared... the ache I remember when we first split up and I felt so lost. 2 years later and I'm still not fully recovered. I'm losing friends. I'm driving people away. I'm getting myself into disastrous relationships. I'm just about at the end of my rope.... I'm tired of trying to be strong. I just want to collapse.
Simon Attwood Posted January 14, 2010 Posted January 14, 2010 "Show me a sane man and I will cure him for you" Carl Jung I think that kind of sums it up really PS if you've had therapy and it didn't help, you've had the wrong kind of therapy
MARINE_ONE Posted January 14, 2010 Posted January 14, 2010 quit blaming yourself. Who knows why she really left you. My wife of 12 years left me last week. We have 4 kids and all. I have been taken totally off-guard by this whole thing. One thing I do know is that no matter what I have done during our marriage, wrong or crazy, it is not the reason she left me. Just try to stay strong for yourself!! God would not put it on your shoulders if he knew you couldn't handle it.
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