lmauk Posted January 13, 2010 Posted January 13, 2010 Right so i got dumped hmmm just over 7 weeks ago - very sudden no closure and have since met up went on dates slept together - still didnt want me so i decided on saturday that this has to stop before i self destruct. So this is now day four of NC - Its like a rollercoaster, one minute im fine the next a nice little memory pops up and i feel like crying. Today i decided to delete him off of my BB messenger. (not that he msg'd me since then) Which kind of felt good. Were still friends on facebook though, i have the setting which hides all his updates etc. I want to block him because i just deep down, even though he rarely updates adds girl etc i still find it hard viewing it knowing he's not mine anymore. I guess i also still want to show him what he's missing how 'well' I'm doing. It's weird. Everything else is great though! I'm caning the gym most nights, seeing my friends, i move in with two guys in 2 weeks, am going to Dublin next weekend - Sooooo why is it still poop?! I also have a date on Friday - which im not sure how i feel about. The guy is really cool we get on very well but i cant help but feel like im not ready?! But then i realllllyyyy dont want to waste anymore time pining over poo head and plus i could be missing out on a great guy for what? one that cant even be bothered to call when i lost our baby? pffft we'll see. I really dont like being single, everything is sooo much better when your in a happy relationship. When I'm single i just feel like im waiting for something to happen, waiting for that relationship to just crop up out of nowhere. I just remembered i have a photoshoot which he is also a model for on Monday - so thats gonna break the NC great. we should just get away with passing eachother by as its not a shoot together - THANK GOD! but i know he'll come over and say hi, wont have the nerve to ignore or be 'off' with him. oh god thats actually going to be positively awful. At least tonight my friends are coming over so tonight theres no time to pine for nick. My goal for this week is to not talk about him to anyone. (apart from LS) He's for my head only.... Toodle pip!!
Brightmoon Posted January 13, 2010 Posted January 13, 2010 You know this already, but if he could not care enough call you when your lost the baby, your really are better of without him. It's hard.. really hard to get people out of our heads, no matter how inappropriate they are when we feel we love them. Takes time I guess. You seem to be doing really well, but I am sorry you are going through this. Good luck in ignoring poo.. and do tell him to **** off when you see him !!
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