sotagoon Posted January 10, 2010 Posted January 10, 2010 I'm sorry if it is taboo to post in this section if I have a post in another, but I am having trouble with my emotions and acceptance. I will say this, I was a lurker 2 years ago when she left then, and finally decided to join and post this time...I know..."This Time"..pretty pathetic. I've been told that I am the "martyr" type. This is what I think is making this really hard. It's just that I fought so hard to bring her back before and this time before she left, I was so scared of losing her to cancer. I was there through chemo, surgery, and until the last day of radiation when she left. (Nov 6th) She won't even speak to me now. I feel so low and like I am a terrible person. After 8 years...this really hurts. Why can't I move on? Why do I hurt so bad? I just want her to be ok and healthy...I really do love her...with all of my heart. My family asks me why I can't get angry?....I don't know?
single Posted January 11, 2010 Posted January 11, 2010 I have been lurking here as well since my gf dumped me 2 days before my birthday just before xmas. After 6 years i am trying every day to move on like you and go from extreme sadness to anger. Still don't know the whole truth suspect another party is involved but sod it i am going to have to get on with it either way and so are you. When you go through life it's like passing through rooms, you and i have left that room with our ex's we have to close the door now and move to the next room and see what that brings. Don't get me wrong some days i feel like not moving and giving up but little things keep me going and we have to keep going as time will heal everything and although we will remember them for ever, one day it will be with a wry smile. As a lurker a big thanks to all you lads and lassies on here who have and are helping me get through this.
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