xpaperxcutx Posted January 9, 2010 Posted January 9, 2010 A while back before Christmas I got to know a guy online named Will. He had answered an ad I posted on a site, and we had started talking immediately thereafter. Our conversation wasn't based on chemistry so much as we were both bored that Friday night, and ended talking into the wee hours of the day. We lost contact for a few days, talked a bit on New Year's Eve, and then finally began talking again this past Tuesday. He invited me out Thursday with some friends ( he was trying to play match maker with his good friend Dan and a good girl friend of his), had made plans to meet on Weds for a bit ( but he had cancelled), and then finally got in contact on Thursday, with me traveling to see him at his place. Will's a hilarious and social guy. He is very outgoing and meeting him on Thursday made me develop a little crush on him. The thing is he's Asian but tall, and slightly chubby built. He's really cute though and did manage to keep me entertained with jokes. I ended up going to dinner, pool, and bowling with his group of friends ( two other girls and two other guys). I also stayed over at his place because we ended up drinking shots at 4 in the morning, and after his remaining friend left, we winded up cuddling and kissing in his room. We woke up in the late evening and during dinner ( which he ordered) we started having a conversation about my lack of serious relationships. I had told him about the one relationship I had with my boyfriend and he said that were I to give others a chance, I would not be afraid of commitment. I was a little taken aback by his words but I brushed him off and we ended up watching season 4 of Dexter with friends who came over. We concluded tonight not talking much ( his concentration either on his phone texting or the tv). He drove me home afterwards. So, now I'm just confused about my feelings for this guy. I know I can't say that I'm in love or anything, but I can say I am attracted. The thing is the possibility of "us" is almost nonexistent being that I'm afraid of being emotionally connected with a guy and he has made mention he was going to move away in a year's time after finishing his masters. I don't want to give into the idea of thinking that if I start pursuing things with him I will be happy, nor should I even think such things simply because of what he said about moving away. I'm afraid to fall in love with someone only to have them say one day we can't be together because of distance.
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