BlueeyedJonesy Posted January 7, 2010 Posted January 7, 2010 I don't know what the hell is going on in my mind anymore..I really need help, I need someone to pull me up so I can catch my breath i feel like I'm drowning!!!!! I was looking for my HS transcript today so I can finish enrolling in school and every thing I pull out of that stupid file cabinet just angers me!!! my husband's sexual addiction has contaminated every little bit of our lives and I think Its time I walk away...looking back I just don't understand how being in love makes you put up with ***** you would never let anyone else get away with. My mistrust is CONSUMING EVERY LITTLE PIECE OF MY LIFE!
eeyore1981 Posted January 7, 2010 Posted January 7, 2010 It's triggers. I completely lost my temper the other day over something stupid and stayed enraged for almost 24 hours. It had very little to do with what happened, it was all the anger and unresolved feelings what happened brought up. Try to take a little break and get your mind on something else for a moment or two. Whatever decisions you may or may not need to make are better made with a cool and rational head. {{{{{{{BEJ}}}}}}}
Author BlueeyedJonesy Posted January 8, 2010 Author Posted January 8, 2010 doing alot better today...I know exactly what you mean about trigger objects or thoughts..I went shopping last night to clear my head (had to return some christmas things) and I went allll alone! no kids!! this is a big deal. lol but when I came home H was clearing out the file cabinet..He looked like he was going to cry when I came home..which is hard to deal with because Its rare to see this man cry..he just said "I'm so sorry" and that was all he had to say...
Gabriele Posted January 8, 2010 Posted January 8, 2010 BIG hug!! It's a roller coaster, up's and down's......a few steps forward, a lot back. don't wait to get IC, you do need something for you, it will help you to work things through. Good for you for getting out just by yourself! Take care, Gabriele
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