HeavenlyTJH Posted January 6, 2010 Posted January 6, 2010 I suppose that before I say anything else, I should put this out there:I'm in a high school relationship. My current girlfriend is my best friend of 2 years, now. We grew extremely close my Junior year after suffering through terrible classes, activities, and overall sleep-killers. During that time, we looked to each other to keep ourselves going; we talked about what made us mad, sad, glad, basically anything that a friend would do for another friend. As time passed, I developed a crush on her. She ended up dating someone else and turned me down. Fast forward a few months, we're in a relationship. Right now, it's been about 6 weeks in. The first few weeks were like the infatuated moments in any crush; now, it's starting to settle in that I may not love her as much as she loves me now. There are times when I miss her, times that I think of her. Times that I feel like I could not bear the next problem if she were not by my side. And yet, there are times when I feel the complete opposite of all of these things. I am well aware that I have commitment issues, but I cannot figure out what this is. Do I love her or not? She loves me, and I don't want to hurt her more than necessary if it comes to that. We have a strong mutual understanding that what we tell each other is the truth and that we hold nothing back from each other. We've shared a variety of experiences with each other:religion, philosophy, politics, almost anything you can name. I just don't understand it. Please help.
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