dreamer84 Posted January 6, 2010 Posted January 6, 2010 (edited) it wasn't about her outter beauty...it was what we talked about...her intelligence, her stance on certain issues. Our outlooks were similar...musical taste similar....we were one in the same...except food We had this thing...we exhanged those words 7 mos later. I was there for her, i wanted her happy. I wanted to bring happiness in her life....she wanted the same...so i thought... she's in a relationship with someone else now and it hurts me...she always told me there is something there for you, but i can be with you right now...we held hands til it hurt, we cuddled, we laughed, we played...how could she lead me on...but she says she did not...how could she cause me all this pain...she says she told me she's turn me down plenty of times...and i told her i can't be just a friend...but she would still go on and say these things...or do.....this just doesnt add up. None of them did as much as i did for you...i took you in when you had no where to go...not them me....and you know i would have been there when your brother died...you know it. Im trying to cope...im trying to let go but every now and again she crosses my mind and i miss her...i miss her so much...what we had was rare...all those sweet things she said...she won't apologize...i almost hate her.... I want her to be happy...but i want her to be happily in love with me...idk...im crying right now...one of my many days of misery....im trying to put it all together but i can't get it right...Im living, im going to work, school, im putting in over time...but im empty inside...she has killed a part of me.... how can i deal with her loving someone else? her stuff is still here in my face....how am I to deal? I wish she wuld see....i told her not to hurt me...she promised me.... Edited January 6, 2010 by dreamer84
GrayClouds Posted January 6, 2010 Posted January 6, 2010 dreamer all of us here knows how you feel. It hurt and hurts bad. Though understand it does get easier, usually no quickly, but with work and time comes healing. The best thing to do now is to focus on yourself and doing what you need to do to heal. It is no longer about her or your relationship. It is about you and using the love you had for her toward yourself: Read the following that will give you a good direction who you can do that: The No Contact Guide So you want a second chance? Good luck
Author dreamer84 Posted January 6, 2010 Author Posted January 6, 2010 thanks alot...ive and am trying these things...she has some belongings she needs to retreive...this is hard. its even harder when you never were officially together...its like one of those things if we got together and it failed it would be easier... but thanks.
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