confusedgirl912 Posted January 4, 2010 Posted January 4, 2010 It has been weeks since I've slept well... All I ever do is think about this guy. I gave my first kiss away to this guy not even knowing what we are. He did court me before but as time passed he began to lose interest in talking to me or being with me.I thought he already got fed up with me,i'm a conservative girl and he's a playboy.His reputation makes me wonder if he was being true, because from what I know he uses girls just for his own pleasure and rise of ego.This new year we got back together and for the first time I made out with someone,I was pretty scared because he was getting to be aggressive, I still managed to control everything though.He still doesn't communicate like he used to, and it makes me wonder.Did I do something wrong before to make him treat me this way now?Now that he’s done making out with me will he leave me for his next victim? Or, is he reformed from his old ways and ready to get real serious with me?I'm really scared of the uncertainty of our relationship, scared to know it was all for fun.Scared to be hurt, and yet, wanting it really badly. Wanting to now it was all true…and I didn’t mistake on giving him my first kiss, that I didn’t make a mistake……..on loving him.
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