We broke up new years day but I'm not as sad as I expected to be..

[Linainverse]

We had a 2 year relationship (started dating Nov 2007). I would say the relationship was very quick to become serious, nothing wrong with that though. I was 17, he was 21, now 19 and 23, respectively. We had an awesome time for maybe the first year - then I think it started to get toxic.. We both agreed to end it after a huge argument that I won't go into too much detail about, it involves much jealousy and the feeling of being taken for granted on my part.

 

My main concern is just.. when we did break up I was in absolute tears, I cried for about an hour and then woke up the next morning and just felt, fresh...I dunno, it was very weird.

 

But also, the single feeling is extremely weird for me - I went to a bar for the first time as a single girl and it was just waaaay weird.

 

I have only had a bit of a tear up once since that night and I honestly thought I would be spending the last 3 days in bed not wanting to get out for the life of me..

 

Should I expect the said depression to hit sometime soon or is this normal?

 

I saw the breakup coming - I am sad when I think about what we had - but I can still easily get on with life.

 

What I am trying to say is.. is there anything wrong with me?

[Howitzer]

Well...this certainly isn't a bad thing to feel alright. That's what you want right? To feel normal eventually, after a break up? Do you think you're suppressing any feelings?

[gaudi]

Delayed grief can happen, even after a few months, sometimes longer.

Not saying that will happen with you though.

 

Did either of you break up with the other, was it a mutual split ??

[HeavenOrHell]

Sounds like you're relieved because he wasn't right for you?

[Linainverse]

Well...this certainly isn't a bad thing to feel alright. That's what you want right? To feel normal eventually, after a break up? Do you think you're suppressing any feelings?

 

Yes I generally make a habit of suppressing emotions - only to have them bite me in the arse further down the line.. Not sure if this is the same..

 

I know he and I weren't right for each other - but I still love him immensely and now I just feel awkward by myself..

 

It was a mutual split - however I saw the split coming from his end, so I prepared myself mentally.

 

Having said this, was not able to get to sleep last night and had another bit of a cry - so I think the grieving process has started, it's just nowhere near as bad as I thought it would be - so, good I think?

[Howitzer]

Count your blessings that you aren't devastated right now. I don't know why you're complaining *grumblegrumble*.

 

Don't second guess yourself too much. Just take it one step at a time for now. Every positive thing is a good thing!